My missing sister

Chapter 1: The night before it happend

      I woke up from the sound of my sister telling me it's the last day of summer. "ANNA!!! It's the last day of summer to do whatever we want!!! So get out bed!!!" she said. "Anni I just want to sleep and read my books" I said. "Your literally no fun I wish I had a twin that shared the same energy as me" she said. "Ok whatever you say" I said. She marched out of the room all upset and grouchy now. I didn't really care because eventually she would bounce back and apologize to me or so I thought. I got out of bed and started reading some WEBTOON on my phone I found a lot of stories on there interesting especially the romance and horror comics. After I finish reading a few of my comics I headed downstairs to my mom who was having a hangover. "She's at it again huh?" I said to Anni. She didn't reply. I figured she was still mad or whatever. I got my mom some donuts from the fridge and some coffee from the cabinet. I read a comic where people always eat food or snacks after a hangover. So that's what I did. My mom was always disrespectful to me but I still loved her. It was like she was god and I was one of the cursed zodiac members. I hated it but that's just how kind I was. I eventually made me an omelet and just started reading some more WEBTOON. No one knew I had lots of disorders so I handled them with healthy and unhealthy habits. It's not easy to tell someone you have an Ed or anxiety or depression especially when they think disorders are excuses or imperfections. That's why my dad left my mom. My mom is bipolar and has schizophrenic and my dad say she was "imperfect" like a flaw. So he left her to us to take care of and look after. I'm not mad at my mom, but I am mad at that jerk of a father now I can't tell anyone what I'm going through because I'm scared of abandonment. So I never told anyone I emotionally scarred myself constantly by keeping everything under wraps and I mean everything. "Anni what you doing over there" I said. "Could you just leave me alone!?" She said while go to are room. I could see her phone and she was texting someone but I couldn't see who but whoever it was I knew it was trouble from the way she had wrote a long paragraph while the other person said something short as "ok" or "yes". I was worried but that was just my nature. Anni isn't like me I don't talk to anyone I don't get to close to people I'm considered what they would call a "loner". "Mom are you going to be alright while I go out for a bit?" I said. "Fine leave me like your father did!" She said with a drunk fizzy voice. I began to leave making sure to grab pepper spray, keys, phone, and a backpack to put the stuff in. I headed to this bridge nearby my house about a mile or quarter mile away. As a young child I was scared of bridges I would say "what if this bridge collapsed" or "we're gonna die I've seen it". I probably wouldn't have been like that if my mom didn't let me watch final destination. As I peaked over the bridge I saw water with small waves. It looked so peaceful. There was times I wanted to jump but couldn't because of the fear my mom would have no one to take care of her or my sister may fall apart. See I'm to kind for my own good. I stared look back on a good memory I had since I have very few of them. I was about to jump this bridge until I saw him and somehow I saw him and felt the need to tell him everything. This was bad. The whole thing of telling someone everything about you and everything your going through makes you want to tell more people. And I got comfortable and did. I was humiliated people made fun of me for the things I went through and went back to the bridge to finally do it. He was there again he grabbed me just before I could jump. "Why are you doing this?" He asked. I figured he was just trying to make jokes since I told him everything about me but I remembered that he didn't go to the same school as me so I told him "I let everyone know and they bullied me" I said sounding like a pitiful child. "Who!?" He said. "People at school.." I said. "Then you should transfer to my school!!" he said. I thought about it and it was a great idea. I asked for his number so we could stay in contact. I told my mom and she agreed Anni on the other hand she was furious. "NO YOU CANT DO THAT MY FRIENDS ARE THERE MY BOYFRIEND IS THERE EVERYONE IS THERE NO...NO..." she shouted infuriated with rage. Her boyfriend didn't even care about her. "Honey it's best for your sister just try to support her ..ok?" My mom said. "NO why should I support my freak of a twin sister I hate her I truly hate her" she said. And before she walked off she whispered in my ear. "your nothing but selfish, bratty, freak little twerp" she said like she meant it too. I was hurt but as usual I just listened to
Music after thanking mom. That day was both happy and sad I was happy to see someone who cared about me even thought they didn't know me. After sitting in the bridge for half an hour he showed up. "Why do you always come here?" He said. "To escape" I said calmly. "I come here because this is the place my grandma talks about my grandpa and how he would come here to paint" he told me. "Oh that sounds so lovely on a day like this" I said. He offered to paint me the next time I came since I had to leave and I said sure. I headed home to my mom choking on her on vomit I took her to the hospital she was gonna be alright. I saw Anni coming in without any expression in her face. I told her to come outside. "WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU??" I said. "what did I do?" She aid it so sarcastically. "ARE YOU SERIOUS ARE MOM WAS CHOKING ON HER OWN GOD DAMN VOMIT AND YOU HAVE NOTHING TO SAY AFTER YOU DIDN'T CALL ME NOR DID YOU TRY TO DO SOMETHING??!!??" I said so infuriated. "She's not my problem she yours and yours only" she said. "you know what have it you way but I want you to know this...your a bad person you call everyone out but never hold yourself accountable" and before I could say anything else she topped me. "Your the most selfish person in the whole universe and I hope you know that" Anni said with a blank expression on her face. I was hurt the word I dreaded most besides the word fat was selfish. I worked a job I sold half of my closet I cook dinner when my mom doesn't feel like it I do everyone's laundry I keep the house clean I got to my sisters teachers conferences and cover up for my mom so we won't get put in a orphanage and she sits up here and calls me selfish? I also realized she never apologized or the way she treated me. "I hate you I truly hate you from the bottom of my heart" I said. I meant in the moment but I was just fronting. We had a heated argument then we both went home I slept in my moms room for comfort she was still in the hospital she needed healthy fluids so she stayed. I had a horrible blunt dream. A girl was screaming but she got quite then screamed again and the last thing I saw was a forest. I woke up it was daylight I checked in on my sister to see what she wanted for breakfast. She was gone.