Some people just walk into the room and the second you see them, you know you are gonna like them very much.
When I found out Crush Culture, wasn't a fan of the song but I saw his video where he explained the meaning and I loved that way more. I cou...
Suggestion: Listen to Lookalike on repeat while reading this. It hits in the right spot :)
He's bad for me. Connie's bad for me. He makes me want to cry all the time. His songs depress me and I can relate to it sadly. What if I'll do that too? I still think about him at night. I hate to admit it but I feel this way.
I imagine myself having a video call with Connie. I apologise for my accent and he tries to speak clearly pronouncing his words slowly. I try to talk to him about how his songs make me sad. Your phase is my phase now , how did you overcome it? Do you just wait for the age to grow you or grow into you?
It's not just his songs, it's the way I feel. He evokes those emotions. But why? Who is this in my heart that hurts me the most?
I went up, to the terrace. Danced to this song, started off happily and at a point, I burst out with emotions. I didn't cry because the rain would overshadow my tears. Or rather I didn't want to spoil the positive emotions felt getting soaked in the rain. I climbed the stairs to see the tall buildings that surround the city and imagined myself in those places. I'll be there soon.
When you look at that smile, hope I cross your mind. Maybe I hope you imagine me as a girl with long, silky hair. I hope you imagine me as a perfect, competitive girl. I hope you imagine me as a girl with passion and talent. That turn still skips my heart beat. Eww, cringy! Why does a song make my life a movie? Why do I like it? The sadness, the pain, the soaked up feelings.
Um, yeah, I'm listening to Lookalike on repeat. It helps me write and sort out my feelings. Listening to songs help me bring out my feelings well. I write the best when I'm drowned in all sorts of emotions, especially of sadness and love, maybe dedication too. Does it make you sad? These songs? Yes, it does! The part in the YouTube video where he said he was looking for someone in all his lovers was so sad, it broke my heart. I want to never be that way.
I took a lot of hand photos, brings the right amount of aesthetic. Pretty sure I've used the wrong form of speech.
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Don't you know we're done? Damn, how does he sing that?
I'm confused. I'm confused about the way I feel. I fell in love with an imagination of mine and now I'm not able to let it go. I'm dying to find a lookalike. Nah, I hope that never happens! He was shit, anyway!
Hey Conan, I really need to talk to you about this phase.
No, I can't lie, I need a lookalike....!
It ends, I'm just gonna upload it. It's okay if it's raw. I want it to be a part of it. I don't mind cringing on it later. I don't mind. My journal is just a book of drama and sadness. I hope they have great titles.
I find trouble breathing sometimes. Man, I've got to stop listening to Conan gray. I need to focus on things that matter. Ahhhhhhhh, I've got to study.
I want a picture of mine that shows how I feel. A picture that speaks for itself. I want them to see it in my eyes, the feelings that I feel. I want them to see it. I want people to see the pain in my eyes. I wish to receive a dm someday :/
Cuz I'm a god....!
Goodbye, Good love, X.
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