When I Was Your Man (Bruno Mars One Shot)

Music is my everything. It's all I have.

But you see, that's where I had failed to realize. Not only did I have music, but I had you. You were always there by my side, as I followed my dream to do music. You stuck by me through every tribulation, you supported me when I was at my thinnest, you were my inspiration.

And I guess, in a way, you still are.

Even though now I've lost you, you still manage to cause pure emotion to run through me. Even something as little as your name being mentioned, my heart breaks a little because of all the painful memories that goes through my mind; I can't help but close my eyes and reminisce the love we once had. Even if it's only for a split second, my heart still hurts for you, for everything I've taken you through. And I'm sorry I never got to clean up the mess I made.

I was too young. . . too stupid. I should've treated you better. My pride was too big, my ego too large, my needs too wide of a distance for you to reach. I was selfish, even. And all of those things caused you to walk out of my life. You were always there for me yet I was never there for you. Till this day, I hate the fact that you slept alone in our bed with just a ghost of me lying next to you. Now the tables have turned and without you, my bed feels just a little bit bigger now.

I could hear your laugh, see your eyes and your smile everytime our song comes on the radio. I immediately turn it off though with a grimace. It just doesn't sound the same.

There is a long list of ways I could have handled the situation differently, where not only I was happy, but you were also. Whenever I close my eyes, it all still haunts my soul. But I've learned from that, and I'm saving it for the next woman that catches my heart, even though it will not compare to what we used to have.

It's probably too late, I know, to apologize but I had to get this off my chest. I was wrong baby, so wrong. I know that now. I should've bought you flowers on Valentines Day and held your hand. I should've never told you I was busy in the studio and should have just taken you out to those parties because I remember how much you love to dance. I should've given you all my hours when I had the chance, because that's all you ever wanted. All you asked for was for some time together, like the good old days, and I didn't give you that. All I gave you was heartache and pain because of my mistakes.

But I just want you to know, to the next man that comes into your heart, I hope he does everything I should've done, when I was your man. You deserve the best, sweetheart. And I'm sorry I couldn't have given that to you.

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