who I wanna be

second person

I want to have blue hair
I want to be loved by my parents
I want to be loved by all my siblings
I want to be able to do what normal siblings do
I want my brother to acknowledge my existence 
I want to be able to be me, and be liked
I want to be able to love myself 
I want people to love me for me, and not my looks
I want people to like me
I want to be popular
I want to be a famous artist
I want to be a famous writer
I want to be able to do all the sports and be good at them
I want to be pretty
I want to have green eyes
I want brown hair
I want to be tall
I want to feel loved by my friends
I want to be able to have a true smile and not a fake one
I want to be able to be there for everyone all the time
I want to be able to give good advice 
I want to be able to fall asleep instantly 
I want to be able to make it through the week without crying at least once
I want to be able to be the best person I can be
I want to be able to take care of people or my dog
I want to be good enough 
I want to be good enough for my brother, because maybe then he would love me and not be embarrassed about me
I want to be able to shave my legs without thinking about cutting myself
I want to be able to stop thinking about what would happen if I killed myself or died
I want me sister back
I want my grandpas' back
I want my happiness back
I want my courage back
I want my feelings back
I want friends who don't insult me at least once a day
I want my dad to be able to have a break from working 
I want my dad to be happy
I want my mom and dad to stop fighting 
I wanna be an amazing trumpet player