tw // mention of death
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Giovanni and I met when the flowers were already blooming in a small countryside of Korea. It was already spring, he was on a vacation and he was there visiting his ill cousin.
To put it simply, that spring 7 years ago we found friendship and I found something deeper than that- you can tell I found love.
We promised one day to meet at the same place where we met, and that say I decided to declare my love for him. But he did not show up, and never did ever again.
I was mad because one day he was there and suddenly he was gone despite that promise. I was mad and pained that it made me want to forget him along with the life I had there. Along with the memories I had with my father. I wiped him off in my life.
Pero sinong niloloko ko? Hindi ko naman talaga siya inalis sa buhay ko eh.
His cousin died when I thought he just stood me up for no reason.
All this time I should be the one apologizing, because of me he didn't fulfill his last promise with his cousin.
Giovanni who was full of promises that time, and not even one of them was fulfilled.
His cousin had a seizure that day and nag-away daw sila ng mom niya nung araw na yon so he ignored all their messages and just decided to meet me as promised. And while he's on his way to me he decided to turn off his phone since their messages are already annoying him but as soon as he opened his phone, he saw his mom's message na his cousin became one of the stars.
Guilt swallowed him, hindi na niya ako napuntahan non kasi he rushed to the hospital hoping it was just a bait but it wasn't
What was the promise Van made with his cousin? Van promised that he'll be there by his side when his time will finally come to an end and wasn't fulfilled. It's because of me. Kasi I made him promise to meet me that day
And now I can't face him anymore.
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giovanae
11:11 pm
Never blame yourself for what has happened 7 years ago, Chae. His death was natural and it happened to be on the day we promised to meet
I used to blame myself as well but upon realizing that I have no control what fate has given me, I stop beating myself for it
That's why you should not too
Please don't have sad eyes anymore, Chae. I'm alright now, and you should be too
Allow yourself to be okay
Gio :(
I'm sorry for hating you
That's not something to be sorry, Chae. Hindi mo naman alam yung rason e kaya ganyan naramdaman mo
Don't be, hmm?
I'll let you take all the words in for now. I don't think you're ready to communicate with me without blaming yourself for what has happened, kaya take your time. Andito lang ako, lagi
I can't thank you enough, Gio
Salamat sa pag intindi
I still don't know what to say but there's one thing I'm sure of
Sobrang saya ko na nagkita ulit tayo
And I hope I won't lose you anymore
You won't anymore
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a/n for future purposes, please don't post any spoilers regarding van's past.thank you !
