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Emily (She's 6, but she will sound older)

She hugged me and kissed the top of my head as soon as she entered the door and put her grocery-bags down. I giggled, I loved when my mother hugs me, it makes me feel safe and loved.

"Hi mama how was work?" I asked her, helping her put things away. Well I was trying to anyway, I was too short to reach the cabinets. My mom, Laura, laughed at me as she watched me struggle to put away the peanut butter.

"Here baby girl let me help you with that. Work was stressful today, my assistant just wouldn't stop talking about how happy he is that I hired him and blah blah blah." I giggled at my mom, we were very close, she was my other half, my best friend. She would always talk to me and tell me everything, like I was her sister or friend she tells everything to.

"Well who wouldn't want to work with you mama?" I told her, smiling a little bit.

"That made my day, thank you princess. You always know what to say." She smiled and when she looked at the clock her face fell.

"What's wrong mama?" I asked, tilting my head to the side. Her glossy grey eyes met mine, she was about to cry. I furrowed my brows together.

"Mama, don't cry. What's wrong?"

"You know that I love you very very much right?" A tear slid down her cheek as she asked me.

"Of course I do mama. You're scaring me now." She sniffled and smiled, wiping her tears.

"Go watch tv baby girl, I'll make us something to eat okay?" I nodded, confused about what had just happened.

"Do you need help mama?"

"No it's okay baby, just relax and watch tv. I'll be okay." I walked into the living room and turned on the tv and started watching SpongeBob. I heard my mom talk from the kitchen, but she wasn't talking to me.

"I changed my mind. I can't do this anymore." I walked closer and hid behind a wall to listen better. There was another person there.

"But you said you wanted to get away from him. You said you couldn't leave 'cause you were afraid he'd beat you again." He said.

"I know but I can't leave her. She's my daughter, I can't do that to her. I can't put her through this." Are they talking about me?

"Well wh-" She interrupted him.

"I can't take her with me, I can't tell her. What am I supposed to do?"

"It's already been decided, we are doing this Laura. As planned now drop the plate." Next thing you know I hear a plate shatter. I run to the couch and yell.

"You alright mama!?"

"Yes baby, mama is fine. It just slipped." I heard her sniffle and I ran into the kitchen seeing a big man holding a gun to her head. I gasped and started to cry.

"Please don't hurt her." I pleaded.

"Emily, baby listen to me. Go in your room, hide and count to ten okay. I'll be fine. I promise." My mom told me. I ran up the stairs to my room and hid in the closet.

One

Bang

I started to cry, that was a gun shot. I heard footsteps near my room and I covered my mouth. Don't make a sound Emily, I told myself. The footsteps came closer to the closet, tears still streaming down my checks. I heard the front door slam shut and my dads voice rang throughout the house.

"I'm home!" I heard my dad yell. The feet walked quickly through the door but before the door closed he spoke.

"Your next kid, I'll be looking for you." And with that he was gone. I climbed out of the closet and ran to the living room and to the kitchen where a puddle of blood lay in the floor. Where's my moms body?

"Emily! Where are you?!" My dad yelled, I followed the sound of his voice and found him in my room

"Daddy..." I whispered, tears in my eyes. He got on his knee and held his arms out. I ran into them accepting his warm embrace. he picked me up and started walking towards the stairs.

"Why are you crying princess?" He doesn't know?

"He killed mama..." I looked at his blank expression. He stood there, frozen.

"Daddy..." I watched as his face grew with rage, next thing you know I'm being thrown down the stairs. I watched as he walked down the stairs slowly, I started scooting back until I bumped into a wall. He walked closer and closer to me. His fist connected with my jaw and I yelped in pain.

"It's all your fault!" He yelled at me. What? How is it my fault? He struck me again.

"Go to your room!" I got up an ran into my room.

30 minutes later

I sat up on my bed, legs crossed unable to sleep. My dad hit me. He opens the door almost falling. The strong scent of alcohol hit me. Ohh no.

"Lauren! Come here baby, I'm feeling horny." He walked over to my bed. I tensed up.

"Why are you tiny? Am I a giant!" He walked to my bed side and tried to take off my shirt, I didn't let him. The back of his hand connected with my cheek.

"Don't resist me you bitch!" He took of my shirt, pants and underwear.

"Dad stop!" I yelled, but he continued. He took off his pants and underwear and got on top of me. He suck it inside of me and I yelped in pain. It's uncomfortable, the pain unbearable. I don't know how long we were like this but he kept going back and forth, back and forth.

"Dad! Stop!" I yelled and tried to push him off me. His fist connected with my cheek.

"Don't resist me! You know what will happen to you Laura!" He thinks I'm my mom? Couple minutes later and he finally got off of me. He put his pants and underwear back on. Tears streamed down my cheeks, that was awful and I hope that never happens again. I looked at my father who sat at the edge of my bed with his head in his hands, sobbing.

"What happened?" I heard him faintly whisper.

"Daddy?" I scooted closer to him.

"I'm sorry about mama." He faced me and I watched as his face grew with rage once again. The back of his hand hit my cheek and I flew off the bed, hitting my head on the wall.

"Don't speak to me ever again! It's all your fault! They should've killed you instead!" He stormed out of my room and slammed the door.

What did I do to deserve this?
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Hey cuties I hoped you like this first chapter, it's from her past so you guys know what happened. Yes this does have abuse and rape if you haven't noticed from the prologue so if you can't handle it then please don't read and for some of you who deal with depression this story will have a lot of that and I don't want to trigger anything. You've been warned. Please

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