For Love

CHAPTER I : : Reminiscing the lost feeling

Akira Sato:

After the last summer rain hit the city, lights start to blink softly. The cold breeze kissed my cheeks and an unknown feeling touched my heart. The trees dancing to the sound of cicadas and frog croaking hoping to find love. This nostalgic feeling, a feeling that I cant remember but was intensely blazing deep in my heart. It was as if I missed someone whom I havent met. But how can I missed someone I dont know. The earthy scent hit by the summer rain everywhere, the orchestral music by the cicadas. A classic romantic night indeed.

A little bit ahead from the path Im taking, the moonlight glimmered on a silhouette of a man, rather a very familiar one. He was approaching towards me. The shadow of the trees hazes his face as I was trying hard to recognise the man. He was approaching me with his big brown eyes, fuzzy black hair, tall and lean body. He was wearing a white t-shirt with black jacket and black pants. As he was approaching, the moonlight suddenly shines brightly above us as it was a sign from the God that this is the man, the feeling I missed. The nostalgic feeling rush through my whole body all over again. My heart was pounding so hard that I was afraid he could hear it. Hi! Akira, he said. My heart literally drops at that moment. I was trying very hard not to cry, holding my tears up to the edge. How can I forget him, yet still be embedded in my heart? After five years of struggle and trying to forget the tragedy, I have suffered, stand the man in front of me, whom I gave the most heartbreak in his entire life, Haruto Iwasaki. H..aruto, I mumble

I still remember that night (five years ago). The rain was pouring heavily as if it was an omen from the above that something really big was going to happened. Screaming, crying, the sound of breaking of the furniture, filled the whole room. I was on my knees, begging it was not as it seems to be. It was a misunderstanding. But. I want to forget everything about that night.my whole college memories, even though my happiest memories also lie there. He was there standing right in front of me, smiling. He was standing in front of me as if nothing ever happened. The darkness I have been running from, not to mention the cruelling therapy I had to every single day just to forget the person in front of me. I hurt someone who have loved me the most because of my greed, my selfishness, my ego and not being able to understand myself. It was all my fault. In the name of love, I have hurt my best friends, the only people who try to understand me, empathise me and try to guide me. but it was my stubbornness that led to all of these mess. All these years, it was not them Im running from, it seems I have been running away from myself and my feelings. But seeing Haruto in front of me I feel like, Im home. I feel safe. I feel like crying my heart out in his arm and apologise for everything I had done to him.

I want to hug him.

Akira. how have you been? .

F..ineits been a while Haruto... how ...about you? .. do you move here?

Umm... I just move in yesterday.

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I have been looking for you Akira. You really are good at hiding, he said with a smile on his face.

Haruto Iwasaki:

..(car honking) get out of the way you idiot, the taxi driver scream.

The sun was scorching high up in the sky. Warm breeze gracefully flowing all over the city. It was rather a very hot day. At that time, I saw a woman similar to her. Pushing and making my way towards her in the crowd, I saw her clearly. Her pale white skin, rosy red lips, wavy brown hair, tuck in her ear, her chubby cute cheeks. She was the same as when I first saw her on orientation day. The sun was shining on the top of our head. The reflected light from this huge building in the middle of the city shone on her like a goddess. I dont know if its because I havent seen her in years or because she hasnt change but she still is the women who gives me butterflies whenever I saw her. After years of searching the whole country, I finally found her

I finally found her.

I was standing there on the crossing road realising I have been blocking the traffic. I was just so happy. But when I try calling her, she was already gone. Mixed in the crowd of Tokyo city. I tried finding her but she was nowhere to be found. It breaks my heart that she was right in front of me and I couldnt even talk to her. I couldnt even call out to her. Wondering why I froze when I finally got the chance to see her again, talk to her, I literally drag my self to way home.

On my way home, as if the weather was imitating my emotion, black cloud hail from the east side. And suddenly started pouring heavily. I ran toward the nearest bus stop, taking shelter until the rain stops. A couple was also there, holding hand laughing at something. The girl was playing with dripping water from the roof of the bus stand. Reaching out her hand playing with the dripping rain. The guy also reaching out and collecting the water in his hand playfully sprinkling on her face and she did it two. Both of them were throwing the rain water to each other and playing until both of them were all soaked in the rain. Seeing them makes me remind me of her. We did it too. We did it first. I really miss her. Akira where are you.

August rain huh! It finally stops. Birds dipped their wings in the lucid flow of air. The sky was clearing into a pink sky.

I wonder looking up in the pink sky, what if she has forgotten me. What if Im the only person who have not move on yet. The crows caw in the nearby tree as if they are mocking at my feeling. Whatever! Ill not be late this time. I will find her and tell her its okay. Its not her fault. It is nobodys fault. We were young. We were in love with the wrong person. Rumi was not her fault. She is in happy place now. It was our fault, we were not there when she needed us, her friend the most. We all were to blame.

On my way home, I usually have to go through the park to reach my block. It was getting dark. The pink sky was also gone now. Twinkling star started to appear but the moon was concealed by cotton candy like cloud as if it was hiding something.

The road way home was overcast with the shadow of high trees with bickering street lamb.

A bit ahead I saw a woman with long brown thin cardigan with white lilies on her hand opposite to the side Im going. She wore blue high waist jean with white basic crop top with the long brown thin cardigan. I approach her intending to recognise her face. Suddenly, moonlight shone brightly upon us and the bickering street lamb also shine brightly between us. It was her.

Akira Sato. I finally found you.

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