I love to journal..... it really feels good to let your secrets out I know, I know its stupid but I like it okay it helps me focused and update my day all the time at least there i find myself ....
i hide my feelings emotions secrets , thoughts , ideas ,people .... so yeah! its dumb, but i don't care .
I feel some thing i turn away from what am writing an figure out what my grandma is saying;" oh dear , your gonna be late for school ,you should get ready! she says with enthusiasm .I do not like school , bad people are they ..at least that is what i see, now that am going to a boarding section . its going quite tough to keep up with work.
that is when i feel my grandma sit beside me on my bed"honeyy, she sighs " please stop worrying its going to be fine . if it had not been for these bills and thank God! you are a smart girl and got a free scholarship in high school, and i don't want you working .. you should go on do what other teens do and 'GRAB LIFE BY THE HORNS!'she says that makes giggle and then wear a serious face, and get off the bed and start looking around while trying to find what to say
" but am not like them ... all trashy and drunk and drugs .... I just can't deal with that ... " at least... not again."grandma- she cuts me off holds my chick delicately and i smell her warm cookie scent which really relaxes me and says ;
" why don't you leave all that worrying for me , okay." I love you and i will go to any extent just for you and your siblings and i don't want you worrying about home , me because I can take care of it." and she pulls into that nice warming hug.
I love you too Grandma but I have to do something here anddd...I have a job righttt !. so no matter what I HAVE to play my role as the eldest , keep and support my family. so dont worry about it.
"awwww love your such-Suddenly my grandma stops speaking only to tilt her head to the window seeing my brother yelling wordsof;
" HEY ELLLA !!! AM NOT GOING TO WAIT ALL DAY SO JUST FOR YOU TO GET COMPLIMENTS AND LOVE FROM GRANDMA !OKAY!!HURRY UP!!! YOUR DAMN SUITCASES ARE HEAVY AND THEY GONNA CARRY THEMSELVES!!
"Dont worry Zayn we're coming"I say smiling and not caring.
we came reluctantly down stairs.
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I said my final good byes to my family and left for *sigh* boarding school .
WITH MY BROTHER DRIVING!!!!" OH MY GOD!!!! COULD YOU SLOW DOWN ! AND TURN DOWN THE MUSIC ! I CAN FEEL THE VIBRATIONS AND MY HEART THUMPING " I Screamed hoping he heard what i just said.
"WE ALL KNOW THATS NOT HAPPENING ELLA"he screamed and continued jamming.
Zayn is my younger brother ,16, very wild ,troublesome.
Out of frustration i just leaned back , stared at the window and drifted off to sleep while hoping boarding will not be that bad.
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FINDING QUIET IN THE WILD
HumorA 17year old girl who grew up from a humble home with excellent values , a deaf orphan whose parents passed away and shes left to take care and support her family by herself . she has a been through a lot with quite ....a difficult past ......and wi...
