Phycho love

Is it...me?

It's been about a good month or so since the conversation with todoroki happened. And ever since then, I kept asking him about his crush and he still wouldn't tell me.

I'm currently laying in my bed trying to think of everyone it could be.

Iida....no they're not close like that but he does care for todoroki
Maybe Uraraka, wait never mind he said he preferred boys....but that's just a preference it can't be impossible. She had shown signs of caring...but nothing about his mental health so probably not.
Asui and him aren't close at all so I think it's safe to say that it couldn't be her.

I spend most of the night trying to figure out who it was with no luck. But then it hit me.
Everything he described his crush sounded too much like me...
Maybe..
it IS me

Now why would you think it's you?...

...huh? Who's this? Why can I hear him?

You really think it could be you? I mean look at yourself. What?...You're so ugly with all those freckles and messy hair. Whose saying all of this?...And you're so annoying when ever you rant about anything. Why won't it stop? Why do I only hear them?...Not even all might wants to hear anything you ramble. Could you shut up pls?....And you shut up...are aware that Shut Up...all might SHUT up!...chose you to be his successor SHUT UP!!!out of pity right? SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!

I can't stop the voice from talking...
Why can't I stop it? Why won't it stop. Why me?

I grabbed my headphones trying to find something to distract me from the voice. It surprisingly worked. It shut up.

I suddenly was in a dark place. I can't even call it a room, it's just an empty void... why i am here now? It feels so cold in here.... I could see nothing
I was...
Alone

I looked around and there was no one and nothing but then I saw a bright light.

I ran towards it and somehow got back into UA . I looked around trying to find anyone until I heard some laughter. Those snarky laughter that I heard many in middle school do when they talked about me. The laughter I hated.

"Can't believe how he still is in UA!," I heard a familiar voice say.
"I've known him his whole life, he was always so weak and pathetic, and he still thinks he can be better than me?!" Kacchan said with that snarky tone I despised so much.

Weak...

Pathetic...

Crybaby....

Deku...

Useless...

"Give up already"

All the words I've been called my whole life was bouncing back to me, hitting me right in the heart with every word. I felt my tears rolling down my cheeks and everything went dark again..

....light....a nice orange warm light is what I saw in front of me.

It was a person, that I could tell, but the face was blurred so to the bright light.
"Are you ok?" He asked
Something I've longed to hear, longed for someone's care, someone's empathy. His face came to focus and I saw the bicolor boy I enjoyed so much.

He's my light. He's the one who help me feel love.
   love
      love
      I love my light so much.