Totsiens

Daffodils

My eyes fluttered as the cold winter breeze  kissed my skin , and gently carassed my hair waking me up to this pleasent sensation. As I slowly opened my eyes I realised that the former night I slept on my desk while writing in the journal of mine. I naturally looked outside the open window and my eyes fell upon the fountain in the middle of the imperial garden. And it struck me like lightning
His grace must have left the palace of stars by now.
When I first met duke lazlo
To me he was nothing more than another face, but now 6 months later he's the only face I could ever find in a crowded place. Just the thought of not seeing his crystal blue eyes drowned my heart and soul in a kind of grief I could never ever dare to elobrate in words. All this really made me think about love of all the words I have ever stumbled upon love is sure to be the most complex of them all,In every novel, story, poems, plays and quotes I have ever read in my existence they all have different definitions for love. Some say love is pain, other one's state that love is all about sweet affection shared between two individuals while there are also works which state love is destruction. But, all I can say about love is that it feels like taking a high leap and flying through the sky to the heaven and then suddenly starting falling, but the peculiar thing about this fall is that you don't even notice you are falling untill you reach the ground and shatter into a million pieces you again gain all your concise and now all you can feel is numbness you are so tired you can't even fell sorrow, you don't even realise the streams of tears falling from your shattered eyes.

I abruptly stood up from my desk as elena came in and asked
"Your highness, you are already awake? "
"Oh! Miss elena, I would say it would have been some considerable amount of time since I woke up"

"Very well your highness, should I prepare  a bath for you? "

"Certainly miss elena, I would like to bath with cold water and tulip extract"

"Of course, your highness "

After a few minutes I found myself in the bath tub filled with cold water and an intruding fragrance of tulips I slowly stepped into the bath tub and felt lighting strikes traveling through my body as the cold water kissed my skin. I felt an over power sensation as I completely laid in the bath tub. I closed my eyes and his face came in my mind his face , his voice and his delicate careful touches.

After 30 minutes elena was knocking on the softwood door asking carefully
" Your highness, are you alright"
The rhythm of her hand banging against the soft wood and her words burst my thoughts like a bubble being burst with a needle, I replied quickly
"I am alright miss elina, I didn't slept properly last night , that's it. "

After a  about ten minutes I came outside of the bathroom and as usual miss elina asked me
" Your highness what would you like to wear today? "

I bluntly replied
" My usual choice, miss elina"

Elina took out an white silk dress with colourful flowers on the frill. I wore the dress and miss elina adored my ombre hair partially black on the crown and blonde on the lengths with flowers.

"Your highness , is something wrong, are you alright? "

" Why do you think so miss elina, that something's wrong? "

"Well, your highness your eyes look different today since you were young they always are luminous and warm but today your eyes are looking cold and depressed."

" Are you ill princess? "

"No miss elina, but thank you for your concern. "

After , getting ready I was supposed to have breakfast with my parents and siblings today, usually I enjoyed spending time with my parents but my siblings and me are really different even though not having a really long age gap between each of us it feels as if mountains sand before our personas. My brother Crown prince Cedric Maximus Skyler Monserrat's  the oldest out the three siblings and is the heir to the throne of the empire of edessa. He is an exact clone of my pàpà, cedric has black short hair ,white skin and golden eyes.My sister Princess Mia Alexa Monserrat's the middle child , she also has shoulder length black hair, pink skin and black eyes. My sister one and foremost goal currently is to look pretty kind of like a decorative doll, and to get married. And then there's me the youngest princess Icelyn lilith Ara Monserrat well compared to my siblings I could be considered the most distinctive either it be in physical appearance or personal choices. I have purple eyes like my mother, ombre black and blonde hair representing my father and mother respectively. I behold pale skin almost transparent. I devote most of my time to playing piano, writing poem and quotes or painting and occasionally sketching.

While thinking I didn't realized to have  reached the imperial dining room. I entered and a smile shot up on my face like like an instinct as I noticed I am not the last one to arrive, cedric is still absent from the dining room.
Good morning pàpà
Good morning mumma
My parents smiled warmly looking at me and my pàpà replied first
Good morning princess
Followed by mumma

Morning ice , take your seat ric will be joining shortly. I went and sat next to mia. Mia looked at me from toes to top while sipping her glass of milk as if to notify me about something and just then cedric enters wishes mumma and pàpà sits next to me.

Pàpà abruptly states

Mia the duke of elystain Lazlo darcel arnoult asked for your hand .

Mia looked at pàpà and mumma and looks at me gazing into my eyes.

Mumma adds quickly

Mia duke lazlo is from the Royal Family of elystain, he is considerate and is a brilliant scholar. So, well we immediately said yes to the proposal.

Mia was just nodding looking at me .
I was not paying attention to their conversation I was just drinking my bowl of soup. I tried my best to maintain my posture and act as normal as I possibly could but inside my chest I could feel my heart shatter into a million pieces. My brother cedric suddenly looked at me as I added pepper from the dispenser in front of me and said abruptly bringing me back to the hall

Icelyn stop drinking that soup at once it already is so spicy and hot.

I looked at him and suddenly I could also feel the level of spice in the soup and the striking pain from my burnt tongue but I again calmly said

No it's not alright, but thank you for your concern and consideration ric.

I looked at Mia who was just nodding to pàpà and mumma's conversation trying to persuade her to marry duke lazlo.
I looked at pàpà and excused myself
Pàpà excuse me, sorry to interrupt but I quite full now and I have to take care of some documents regarding trade and foreign affairs , so I should be taking my leave now.

Pàpà gazed at me and stated agreeing with me
Well of course dear you should likely be going ahead you have a big task on your hand about which I am optimistic you will fulfill as pragmatically as you handel everything you do perfect and flawlessly.

Mumma looked at me worryingly and said

Dearest you are looking really under the weather don't work to hard your work is already sleek and perfect. Don't forget to get some rest and buckle up because sister is going to get married you will be having a ton of responsabilites shortly.

I nodded in a dry , almost emotionless voice
Most certainly mumma

I came out from the room walking back towards the crystal Palace I was engraved to my thoughts when the bubble of my thoughts bursted I found myself in the imperial gardens standing near the fountain , there was most certainly some magetic force attracting my heart and soul to this place and my feet as if hypnotized bringing me here reminding me of him . It was still pretty early in the morning there was still no sign of the sun as if the sky was reflecting my situation, as if it was reflecting the dusk my soul was facing there were clouds it was certain it was going to rain. No one expect me came towards this part of the palace it was probably abandoned. Everytime I came here all there was left here was me and the silence accompanying me in every way it could.
I sat there on the fountain closed my eyes and all now I could see was me and duke meeting first time as clear as if happening in the present.

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A little extract from the nxt chapter-
She knew with her heart and soul that she would and could love him forever never was she meant to lose him, to distant herself from him.
But her devils knew from the first moment she was going to lose him in the end
She wrote as silent tears rolled down from her cheeks onto the parchment distributing some of the red ink.
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