its been a bit and iv gone through some shit. at some point i forgot about this book and started writing in a journal, for most of 2020. and got through most off the shit that 2020 brot.
but i jest saw a video of someone i know say some bad stuff. and i mean he know he was recorded it but didn't relies he was streaming. he channel got banned.
but does it really make a deferens if he know or not he said it. (the f slur and r slur) and i don't know if his gay but iv told him the r slur is bad, but his mom use's it a lot. but that's not really an excuse, and i don't want to make excuses for him.
i don't know if i should ask him if his gay, because pressuring someone into telling you stuff like that when their not redy is bad. but he sad a slur and I'm gay so it hert to hear.
but even if his gay is the way he used it ok? honestly i can really remember how exactly he used it but it wasn't for like a funny joke, and he dint call himself it.
he was doing a anima dub thing, and i think he was having one of the carters say it to another. but it was kind of hard to under stand.
is it selfies to stele be friends with him. like he need to change and i wont forget this but i really don't want to stop being friends with him but i do? i don't know I'm got to give it some time and if he see if he gets better or not and then make a decision.
12:42 9/29/2021
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a diary
Randomjust a place i can go to write my feeling, and problems away. i guess?
