One more cut. I take out my blade put it to my side. Deeper. The more pain I feel the less I'm stressed. Self harm is my comfort, my paradise, my friend. No one is home to hear the screams that escape my mouth. After im finish i go to the sink to wash off the blood running down my legs. Im going out clubbing with my friends Keisha, Bri, Keddy, and Sadie tonight, i figured i should do atleast a few to get me through the night. They are my very best friends but if they would out i would lose them too. I go out side in the chilly Minnesota air to have a cigarette, before i start getting ready. I pick out a red, tight dress with a pair of black heels and lay them on my bed. I strip down and get into the shower. The hot water burns as it hits my freshly new art work i made on my side. After i wash my self up, i blow dry my hair and start curling my long, blond hair. After my make up is done and perfect, i slip on my dress and shoes. "Who are you noww" i hear my phone start ringing to the tone of 'Who are you now' by Sleeping with Sirens . Its Keisha "Hello" I said "Hey we are on our way. are you ready?" keisha said over all the noise in the car. "Yeah just in time i just got done" i laughed hearing Mary cracking jokes in the background. "Alright girl, we'll be there in 2." Click "Alright then" i said out loud to myself, since she hung up with out and answer. I do last minute touch ups before i hear a car in the drive way. I grab my over night bag and then I make my way outside and lock the door since i have no idea when Aunty Kay will be home. I climb into Sadie range rover since she's so rich and can buy whatever makes her happy, actually her parents do. We're going to Auqa tonight our favorite place. Where all our friends hang out. We pull up to Auqa and make our way inside. Everyone is here tonight as we go to our usual table in the corner. "Lets go dance" Keddy yelled at me. I nodded. We go to the middle of the dance floor and start having fun. As Keddy spins me around i caught a look from the corner of my eye of Louis Tomlinson. I stop mid spin. "What, What is it" Keddy yelled. "Look" I pointed in his direction. "Is that?" Keddy gasped. I nodded. Louis Tomlinson. He was the "bad boy" in school. After 11th grade ended no one knew what happened to him, he disappeared. Actually he ran away. Its the end of senior year, so i guess hes back now. We only have a month untill school actually ends. I guess he has a fake I.D too. Of course he does. His eyes met mine and he caught be staring at him. I hurry up and turned away. He started to make his way to me. I look around to find Keddy but i can't find her any where. Hands grabbed my wirsts and i gasped. "Aren't you Savanah?" he whispered in my ear. "Uhh, yeah i am." I spoke shyly. "Well Savanah, dance with me" He whipsered into my ear lightly nibbling it. "I should really get back to my friends" I Said pulling away from his grip."Oh no i don't think so" He smirked at me putting one arm tightly around my waist. I gasped from the sharp pain from the cuts. "Come on, one dance" He said annoyed. "No" I said firmly " Well then" he said pulling my phone from my pockets that i had put into the dress. "What are you doing" I yelled at him "Just putting my number in your phone babe" he winked. I had no clue what to do. I was shocked he never talked to me in school but i would see him eyeing me in class sometimes. "See you soon, baby" he said winking at me and walking away. I half ran half walked back to our table and told them what happened. "Are you serious" Bri gasped "Uh, yeah. Keddy why would you leave me!!" i yelled at her "I'm sorry i came back here to tell them that he was here" She said looking down. "It's fine" i laughed. She looked so guilty. Around midnight we started getting everyone and leaving. We got to Sadies house and set up are stuff and put the movie in the movie The Cabin in The Woods. About 30 minutes into the movie i get a call "Hello?" i said "Hey baby" i heard Louis laugh "What do you want" I said "A date with you, Tomorrow night around 7" he said "No" I said shockingly "Come on, just one date" "No" i said again "I'm not asking you, I'm telling you" He said annoyingly "Fine, whatever" i yelled. Giving up since he kinda of scared me. "See you tomorrow, babe" he chuckled. "Who was that?" Keisha asked "Louis fucking Tomlinson" i said annoyed "No" they gasped "Yup, we're going on a date tomorrow to" i said in the same tone "What" Bri almost screamed "I didn't havea choice, he's making me" I said throwing up my arms " I just don't want to talk about it" i sighed "Alright baby" Sadie hugged me. i laughed, she always acts like my mom. "Just watch the movie" Keddy said giving me a sympathetic smile.
