It is hard enough for Jungkook to continuously witness his peers finding their mates when he had been waiting for years to have his own. It is even harder when his eyes fall to someone who he may not even be allowed to pay attention to, much less to...
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The anger that Jungkook had felt for being pulled away within seconds from meeting his mate had dissipated the moment he found out what the Alpha had needed from him that day. It had distracted him for a moment, even if the Alpha's request had caught him off guard, leaving him feeling unsettled that he couldn't give a direct answer on whether or not he was capable of accepting his duty. Thankfully, the older wolf seemed to get it, and had let Jungkook go on his way and let him take his time to consider.
For a time, thinking about the job he was meant to deal with had managed to occupy his mind just enough to push the thoughts about his mysterious mate out of his head. But as days continue to pass and it simply seems as if the entire universe is plotting to keep him away from his mate, Jungkook's frustration begins to build up that he can barely do his daily duties well. From messing up with the border patrol schedules to spacing out on the job, he knows that everyone can easily notice just how badly he has been doing lately. And that is why it is no surprise when the Head Enforcer finally decides to ask him to meet up privately one morning after an early meeting with the Alpha.
"You seem to have something occupying your mind, Jungkook. Is there something wrong?"
Having more used to deal with Hoseok's playful side, Jungkook is completely unprepared when his superior is regarding him with a frown and a serious look on his face. And it is hard for him to even pretend that everything is alright when Jungkook feels terribly scrutinised under Hoseok's gaze.
"Nothing is wrong, really. Why?" Jungkook answers him while keeping his eyes away from his superior, afraid of what his eyes may reveal if they exchange gazes for too long.
Both his defiance and the denial should have pissed Hoseok off as a more superior wolf, yet Jungkook's reaction only brings a small grin to Hoseok's face. It is obvious that he is quite amused to see Jungkook trying to weasel his way from answering his superior, and looking terribly flustered while doing it. But there is also a concerned look appearing in his eyes that makes Jungkook feel somewhat guilty for hiding things from him.
He doesn't even know exactly why he feels the need to hide the fact that he may have a chance to meet his mate and how the thought keeps bothering him. Perhaps the conversation that he had with Hoseok the other day still lingers in his mind. He still finds it hard to shake off Hoseok's reservations about fated mates and the scepticism that he has against it that he is afraid of what the other wolf would think if he ever shares anything about his mate. At least, not before he can be completely sure about her really existing. Perhaps it is because sharing the news also means that he is sharing his mate's existence with other people—which is something that makes everything seem even more ridiculous to think about.
And then there is also the fact that he keeps missing the chances to find his mate, even when he can already feel all the signs around him. Truth be told, it is starting to make him doubt her existence. He even wonders if it is possible that he has only been imagining things—that he has let his hopes of finding his mate to grow so strongly that his senses have decided to create a mirage of the mating bond for him to feel hopeful about it.
