𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗶𝗻 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 jaeyong

7: silence

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Chittaphon wasn't expecting visitors that night - at least... not in the middle of watching The Conjuring, with his boyfriend Johnny practically sitting in his lap.

So when the sounds of a very distraught human being caught his attention, as well as the faintest little knock on his apartment door, he was ridden with confusion.

He fumbled around for the remote, pausing the movie which earned a sigh of relief from Johnny, the latter still refusing to admit he was scared out of his mind. There was a moment of silence as the two rearranged themselves so Chittaphon could get up to check the door.

He was soon met with the saddest sight he'd ever seen. A fragile-looking Taeyong was curled up on his doorstep, crying as if the world was ending tomorrow and nothing in his life had satisfied him yet to be even remotely okay with the thought of an inevitable death.

Okay, so maybe he was exaggerating a little, but it's not every night one of your close friends from college shows up on your doorstep, a crying mess.

Sighing a little, he opened his arms wide, heartache coursing through him as Taeyong immediately buried his face into Chittaphon's chest, only crying harder.

He waited a few minutes, drawing soothing little circles on boy's back until his sobs became less violent, slowly turning into soft little sniffles. "Better?" He asked, concern etched into his features as he took in the dark circles under Taeyong's eyes, and how he'd seemed to have lost weight.

"Not really." His voice was hoarse and scratchy, nothing at all like the sweet melodic tone Chittaphon was used to hearing.

"Tell me exactly what happened. Tell me what you need me to do, and I'll do it."

And so Taeyong explained, from the feelings that were always there, the date, the confusion and everything in between.

How he fell in love with a little boy, who grew up to be the man he called his best friend. And that love never wavered, not one single bit, though Taeyong could never admit to this because he knew it was unrequited. And it would always be that way.

Soon enough, Johnny found himself abandoning movie night to go walk around the other side of the building. He'd overheard that a possibly distressed Jeong Jaehyun could be currently sitting alone in his apartment and after some discussion with his boyfriend, they'd agreed that Jaehyun needed someone too.

So here Johnny was, pacing outside as he waited for Jaehyun to open the door. What he wasn't expecting to see was Jaehyun's blotchy skin, red eyes, overall dishevelled appearance and the hurt that was written all over his face.

And as soon as Johnny entered the apartment Jaehyun collapsed into his shoulder and cried.

Which was unnerving to say the least, because Jaehyun never cried.

Ever.

At least, not in front of anyone who wasn't Taeyong.

And as Johnny sat on the couch, running his fingers through Jaehyun's hair slowly, he learned everything. All the stolen glances and continuous confusion and the heartbreak that never seemed to end. Because Jaehyun had always loved Taeyong, and always would.

There was no pretending anymore.

"I don't know what to do Johnny, I just don't know what to do." He was saying, over and over and over again, blubbering until he couldn't speak. His throat constricted and he was left gasping like a fish out of water. He became a Jaehyun without his Taeyong.

Imagining life without Taeyong was the most painful thing he had experienced and yet this was reality. This was cold, hard reality and it was all his fault. Nothing he could say or do would fix this, because there were too many things left unsaid.

And Taeyong didn't come back. Not that night, nor the next, nor a week after.

The only thing between them now was an indefinite silence, that neither of them seemed to bring themselves to break.

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10-ish minutes till 2022!! happy new years... sorry for making you cry! we only have 3 or so chapters left of this story! thanks again for all your continuous support, it means the world to me <3333