a long time has passed ever since the date ezra had with oakley, and during that time they've gotten extremely closer.
they've met each other's parents and friends, they go out and have fun together, they have movie nights and sleepovers, and many many more things.
what's next?
that's a rhetorical question, please do not answer that.
i already know the answer, but i don't want to think about it right now.
ezra's currently at the cemetery right now.
it's my birthday.
"twenty years old today" ezra grinned while she pulled out a small sized cake, just enough for one person. "can you believe that?"
no i hate growing up, i'm getting older!
"you'd always tell me how you didn't like getting older or whatever" she let out a small chuckle. "but hey, you're one year closer to being able to buy alcohol"
you know i don't drink my love
"fuck" she sighed. "that was a horrible joke, you don't even drink"
you're too cute
i let out a giggle and leaned my head on her shoulder.
i wish you could feel me
"i'm gonna light up your cake now" ezzy said while pulling out a lighter.
once she lit it up, she started singing happy birthday.
"happy birthday to you" she sung with a small smile. "happy birthday dear billie, happy birthday to you"
i leaned down and blew the candle.
it surprisingly went off.
"oh shit" ezzy laughed. "i know you're here bil, happy birthday my love"
thank youuu babyyyy
"i wish i could see you" ezra frowned while sighing.
i'm right in front of you!
i get frustrated at times because i'm always with her. i want her to see me, but she can't. and it just gets me so annoyed and sad because i just want her to see me and touch me and hold me.
fuck.
ezzy got up and looked down at my grave.
"i'll see you soon" she said quietly. "i love you"
i love you
i wrapped my arms around her while she just stared at my grave. i tightened my grip because i can feel her, but she can't feel me.
ezzy turned around and began walking away.
i was just getting dragged as she walked to her car.
i let go and watched her leave.
fuck man...
i went back to my grave and sat down on the ground exactly where ezra was sitting right now.
all the time i wish i wasn't driving recklessly.
if i wasn't speeding down the highway going over 115mph, i would still be here with ezzy.
and to be honest, it just happened so quickly.
one second my car starts skidding and i hear a loud ass crash, then the next i'm having an out of body experience and i realize i'm dead when i see the paramedics pull my body out and put a tarp on me.
i will never forget the moment i saw my dead body.
nor will i forget watching ezzy breakdown and the sound of her cries.
it's scarring honestly
i guess i zoned out while staring at my grave because i felt someone walk right through me.
rude
i got up and turned around only to see oakley here by herself.
the fuck you doing here?
"hi" oakley let out a nervous chuckle. "uh- i know it's weird that i'm here but um- sorry i'm just nervous"
i just made a face as i looked at her.
"ima just get straight to the point" she breathed out while sticking her hands in her pockets. "look, i really like your girlfriend- or ezra- fuck i don't know, but i really like her"
yeah she's my girl still, but also technically not which sucks
"i have strong feelings for her" oakley told me. "and you know uh- i want to ask her out..."
she stood quiet for a few seconds.
"i promise you, that i'll treat her good" oakley said with a small smile on her lips. "can you like give me a sign if you don't mind?"
i let out a sigh while shaking my head.
oakley's been really good towards ezzy since the beginning. and like i've said before, it's time for her to love again.
she deserves it.
thing is, she's still my girl and it kinda hurts.
watching her these couple months with someone new. watching her wake up tangled in someone's arms that isn't me. watching her make new memories. watching her fall in love again.
it hurts a lot.
"make a noise or something" oakley spoke. "fuck- i probably look so stupid talking to myself, but please give me a sign"
you do look stupid
i let out a little laugh and thought of what i should do.
i am a ghost after all.
i stepped on a branch which cracked.
"oh fuck" oakley jumped a little. "thank you, scared the shit out of me, but thank you. i promise you she's in good hands billie. happy birthday by the way"
please be good to her
