I have the hugest fear of death.
where do you go after you die ???
when you die there's like no coming back from it.. what if there's no heaven or hell. how does it feel to die.. ( gonna search it up on Google😏) ? how will my family react when I die?? am I re born???
how will I die? help is available😒 gave me the suicide hotline. the comments made me even more worried. wtf.I feel like I've changed. I haven't been on discord as much as I usually am & it's honestly not affecting me as much as I thought it would. I'm not even bored as much anymore. plus I've been talking to my rl friends more & got in touch w some of my old ibfs.
I've actually been doing better. baby steps but yk 12 days clean I think I deleted the app 😿. I got my clothes a while ago I should do a clothing haul later. I gave myself a hickey😏
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