Getting lost in memories,
Being unconscious.
Overwhelmed by worries,
Seems too dangerous.
Me as a being,
Simple and quiet.
Fighting in deeps,
In my head, which's privat.
Smiling around,
All around the world.
While the monster inside me,
Wants to say a word.
Seeing differences,
Making me feel deep.
All around are fences,
And the hill is too steep.
Where to go?
That's what I'm asking.
Can't see other way.
Is that really fair?!
When i see the night sky,
It reminds me to dream.
Maybe that is only way how,
To escape from the stream.
Running away, hitting bareers.
Is that what I want?
Visible are other careers,
But that has just no front.
Dreams were maybe helpful.
But for how long?
This is how my thoughts look like,
That's why I seem so strong.
Fighting daily,
Distractions from normal life.
As a kid I thougt that being happy,
Is to put on snowman a scarf.
But now I feel, like I see truth,
That's been hiding for long time.
Having no thoughts looks so easy,
But for me it's inner crime.
Just don't think, they're saying to me,
Just don't worry, it's alright.
But I feel like I'm drowning,
In the thoughtful sea that’s bright.
Feel the water everywhere,
Doesn't let me breath.
Feeling like that seems so endless,
Feeling like I feel the death.
Until something happens,
Until I something felt.
It was not that easy,
I knew, that chocolate melt.
New beggining, that's starting,
Watching up to sky.
While the stars I'm counting.
I’m feeling happy now.
Feeling simply openminded,
Listening to waves.
Not feeling so hard devided,
But that's how story ends.
Being in the deepness,
Allows me to fly,
With one friend standing besides you,
There's no space to cry.
