Letter (Grey's Anatomy)

Mer's letter to Alex

Dear Alex,

A lot of things have happened since you left.

I just came out of a coma like two weeks ago, I had a bad case of covid, ya, I know crazy.

Well I was in the coma I saw Derek, George, Lexie and Mark, you must be thinking I'm going  crazy but It's true, I did.

Maggie just got married to this very nice guy named Winston, he is a cardio attending here.

You know the Peds attending who came just before you left, Cormac Hayes. He and I are kinda dating I guess, but I don't really know what to call it.

Now your probably going to take the next plane back and make sure he isn't hurting me. You were always so protective of me, probably because my husband died. But I'm doing okay, I'll always be okay.

Jo adopted a little baby girl named Luna. Luna's mom was one of Jo's patients, the mom died. Luna is so beautiful and Jo is happy, but I probably shouldn't be telling you all this.

How is the job? I hope there isn't many covid patients in the Peds ward ,I hate that the family can't really go and stay with the patient, it makes me wonder what my family was like when I was in the coma.

Zola still doesn't get why you left, and I'm trying every possible why to explain it, but she still doesn't understand. I forgot to mention that science project for Zola's school that you helped her work in is amazing! We just need a dog to complete it.

Amelia had her baby, his name is Scout Derek Shepherd Lincoln and he has the most loving parents ever. (Me and Derek were just a little bit better at parenting.)

Your probably reading this letter and thinking, wow Meredith's really got everything straighten out, but that's not true, do you remember when me and Deluca were dating. We broke up. I don't want to blame it on him, he was going through mental issues and he chose to break up. At first I wasn't okay, I didn't have you to go to. When I couldn't go to you, I would text you but not send the message because I would never want to actually say those things to your face. I'm sorry.

Then I started to find the light in things, not the darkness. Everything started to get better. Amelia had her baby, I became an aunt.

Then I went into the coma.

When I got out of the coma I knew Maggie, Richard and Bailey were keeping something from me. I hated that feeling.

A couple of days after I got home Bailey came over to the house and pulled me into the kitchen. She sat me down and told me that well I was in the coma, Deluca got stabbed and he sadly died.

I cried for hours alone in my bedroom wishing either you or Derek were there to comfort me. The light changed to darkness again after that.

When Maggie's wedding came around I was starting to be happy again. Bailey, Ellis and Zola were the flower people and that made me smile.

You should come visit some time, I think everyone would want to say hi.

Your mom somehow got my text and she has been texting me all the time. Just to make sure I'm okay with out you by my side. I will be, it's just taking longer then I expected, I tell her.

Have you talked to Izzy about that you met your mom, if not you should. You should probably also call her.

Everyday since you left, I have been trying to find a reason to make you come back but I don't think I can bring you back, your too happy where you are. So that makes me happy.

Before I went into the coma, it was Bailey's birthday, and he asked for a cake all to himself, that's what he wanted for his birthday. That's what we got him. When we put the cake in front of him if just shoved his whole face in the cake and then grabbing the cake with his hands and licking it off each finger individually. All of us were laughing so hard. After all that I realized that he wanted to make us laugh in the time of depression.

How are Izzy and the kids? I would love to visit you, the kids and Izzy sometime. Maybe when the worldwide pandemic is over. Deal?

I really miss you.

-Meredith