Can It Be All So Simple

rodriguez

Shurrie's house was a few blocks away from mine so we walked to the party. We'd taken our time (and a couple beers) getting ready but it still was so fcking cold outside and i decided to stick to a pair of baggy jeans, a polo long sleeve and the north face i had thrifted las month.

The city was vibrant and i couldn't help to smile while rollin myself a cig. Shurrie was talking about this book she had discovered, there was soft music coming from the blocks we were passing by, and i felt very grateful for everything I had, my friends and the roof I was living under.

It hadn't always been this way, before moving to my nan's house in Staten Island I used to live in Brooklyn with my parents, but they were heavily into crack and didn't know how to take care of me. I haven't heard from them since then but I rather forget everything than bring all that shit back into my life.

That day, before the boys had arrived in the record store, i'd had a bit of trouble dealing with my own feelings and i felt a bit down. Sometimes It was hard for me to picture a hopeful future but i supose you gotta take life minute by minute, and moments like this always made me feel better.
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We arrived at 00.30, u could heard the music from 2 blocks away but no one was gonna call the police. Dennis opened the door to us with a surprisingly big smile. He was a bit drunk and everybody who knew about them could tell he had been waiting for Shurrie. He hugged her very thightly whispering sweet nothings and remarking that her bothers weren't around.

"Okay lovebirds imma leave u alone now." I hugged Dennis "Where's Ason man?"  We got inside and I had to shout to make him hear me through the music

"Think he's hanging on the couch with Shotgun, I'll join them in a while, we going for a walk, love ur shirt btw u better give it back soon" he smiled to me and went away with Shurrie

"Bastard u told me it was a gift!" I shouted to him and sent a kiss to Shurrie. "love u girl have fun"

They were smiling and hugging each other very tightly and honestly I was so so happy for them. Shurrie glowed every time Dennis was around and so did him, a tiny little part of me wanted that kind of love too, wanted to trust someone as much as they did.
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The party was manly on the living room, it was so crowded that I struggled to even find the couch where Ason was suppossed to be at. While I tried to find  him I saw that someone had left a plastic bag full of beers in a table right by the entrance, so I took it without any doubt and made my way through the crowd.

I didn't know most of the people that were passing me by but I recognized a friend of Divine who told me the boys were in the back of the room. The music was coming from some big speakers in a corner and if they weren't my height I would have thought about bringing them home with me. I was feeling the general vibe and the next day I didn't have work so i wanted to get a little bit wasted and have some fun

Shotgun was the first one that I recognized, he was arguing with Ason, and quickly waved when he spotted me. I had always gotten along with him, we were together for a while when we were teens and Shurrie was always teasing me about it, even though the whole thing was kinda childish and he'd cheated on me twice. That was the only relationship I've had and I'm not planing on trying it again.

I waved back  and wished him a happy birthday, even gave him some of the beers I was carrying. The noise of the party and the laughter of my friends wrapped me up when I sat down in the sofa, I was feeling very calm and happy. Ason hugged me and put a joint in my mouth, I took a few puffs and I hugged him back asking how was life, and getting ready for all the gossip. This simple moments gave me life for real.

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A few hours had gone by and I was super high, alone in the sofa, rolling myself another joint, Shurrie and Dennis were supposed to drop by but I was still waiting. Then I saw Bobby entering the room for the first time in the whole night. My drunk self thought he looked so good with all the purple lights on his face.