taehyung quavered his chopsticks. don't judge him, he knows how to hold them, but it is quite tricky eating with your left hand. his right was busy warming jungkook's paler left hand.
he noticed the younger not having enough meat on his plate, the canteen worker probably did not give a damn about her job, or did not care about students like jungkook. taehyung rolled his eyes, transferring his mutton loin chop to jungkook's platter.
"you don't have much for yourself." jungkook warned the elder blatantly. they sat at the last table of the stupid canteen, where nobody is alone enough to advertise them, or reach them even.
"it's better if you have it." taehyung then said shortly after. he rubbed the back of jungkook's hand for a cottony pledge. he raised a brow when he saw the younger not eating. "you want me to feed you?"
jungkook chuckled airily, hitting taehyung lightly somewhere he cannot even remember for he felt mystified by this giddy, tender romance that he could not get a hold of. he clutched taehyung's fingers tighter, not entirely knowing the reason why he felt them so alluring.
he did read it around, maybe. but he is started to get certain about why he never fancied the adult magazines his roommates like very dearly.
jungkook felt taehyung releasing his hand, only for it to gift him that same chocolate in his hand wordlessly.
nobody saw taehyung ruffle away jungkook's dark strands, that were styled the way the school authorized. taehyung messed his head, he messed with his head, he brought jungkook's front hair ahead for it to hang like imperfect bangs, as they were never trimmed for that.
taehyung tucked a piece of a fretful curl behind the darling boy's ear, smiling for no odd reasons. he let his hand rest on jungkook's neck, feeling the heat of jungkook's blush travel here and there.
taehyung's eyes drove to jungkook's lips, and he was utterly confused. he did not know where to look at, either the perky lips or the mole under them. he was determined that it would be the biggest corruption if he injustices one of them from the rightful attention.
"have you kissed anyone before?" taehyung managed say timidly. he had not known why he asked this so suddenly, he could not think his words out properly.
"no, everyone here is-" jungkook said before getting cut off.
"they're all boys?" taehyung asked, in a way that he could not comprehend himself. his statement could hold many answers, taehyung was not sure of what color he wanted to hear.
"no, they're all super... indecent?" jungkook said after figuring the correct term. jungkook focused his pupils directly on taehyung before asking, "how 'bout you?"
"i-" taehyung's breath halted at those eyes, precautions were essential, he understood. "i never stayed long enough, anywhere. i was just - never there in school, different places day and night, just walking around, everywhere, every day. everywhere that i was nowhere." he smiled sadly.
"but you're always here." jungkook mumbled innocently, his head lowered.
"for you."
he wanted to write years of essays over his eyes, but the school bell beat him to it.
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jungkook waited for the few boys to leave the bathroom, they were the ones who usually shower the last, so he thinks that it would be quiet after their absence. he stood by the far corner, alone, and heard them joke around vulgarly.
he fumbled with his towel since he found no other way to escape this uncomfortable station mentally. he loathed the way the seniors horribly teased about intimacy as if it mattered no sentiments to any person. he hated it very much when he had to see them naked and wet like that.
