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Title : Dear Diary
Tags : Vanilla, Softcore, shy reader, pretty mediocre and kinda sad.

**This isn't smut, it's more like a diary entry. Should I make it a series? Maybe smut in part 2?

546 Words.

Have fun reading and remember, it's all fictional.

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"Just a second honey! I'm looking for my phone. I can't find it." Jaebum shouted from upstairs, while you waited for him near the door.

"You made me get myself quick and my make-up isn't that nice. Now, you make me wait." You rolled your eyes, fixing your lipstick.

"Where is it? For god's sake. Ah, fuck!" He grunted when his knee hit on the table. He moved it to a side and saw a diary. To his surprise it was yours.

"No, I can't read it, that's an invasion of privacy." He said to himself, closing his eyes shut. He took a deep breath.

"I'm such a bad boyfriend." He sighed as he opened the diary and flipped the pages to the last entry you wrote.

"Dear Diary, 
                 I don't even know where to begin. I mean, I love him so much, he is so affectionate and I couldn't ask for more but when it comes to our 'intimate' time...I need more and I don't know how to tell him. Don't get me wrong, I love when he's slow, and he takes his time and treats me like a porcelain doll but sometimes, a girl needs a hard fuck. He's not gonna hurt me if he takes me roughly and sometimes I wish he did." 

Jaebum was confused as fuck and he felt regretful. He never thought that you would be into that as you never spoke that much about sex.

" I feel so bad for feeling this way about him because he gives me everything and anything and I feel so bad that I want him to be more dominant and assertive. Goddamnit, I just want to be taken and used as an object solely for his pleasure." 

"I-i...didn't....know that you felt like that." 

"The other night, he took his time with me and I managed to whisper "fuck me" and he just smiled and kissed me. Then I wrapped my legs around him but he just continued at his slow pace and made me cum, and I did BUT that's not the point. It's not about me finishing....it's about.....I don't know. I don't know how to bring this up and I don't even know how he'll react to this. I guess I'll wait for him to change himself or...I don't know. I really don't."

"Oh, baby...I never even thought about that. I-I...." He felt guilty.

"JAEBUMM! YOU DONE YET? WE'LL BE LATE!" You shouted, feeling annoyed. 

"I'll be right back." He said, trying to shake off his thoughts. He returned the diary from where he found it and looked for his phone. He found it laying on his bed and ran downstairs.

"Let's go?" You said, opening the front door and walking out. You almost tripped on the stairs and before you fell, he caught you.

"Careful!" He said, holding you close and slowly making you stand straight.

"Nice reflex you got there." You winked and kissed his cheek. He looked into your eyes.

"You okay?" You asked, as he usually returns you a kiss. 

"I'm okay." He smiled and kissed you back.

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HAPPY NEW YEAR CUTIEESSSSSSS! (I've been a bit inactive but oh well.) May this year bring us happiness and maybe a boyfriend or girlfriend. pls no despair.