I'm Going To Lose My Marbles.

You're Simply Just Here.

I'm going to lose my marbles.

But maybe they fell in a drain pipe then broke when they fell from the sky then they rolled down the street in pieces and stab peoples feet through their shoes and then they'd get crushed even more by a car and pop the tires making the car crash and the people inside get stuck, as people around them try to break them free but that's when a firefighter truck appears and tries get them out. But no, the car explodes with all the people in and around it along with the firefighters and the fire truck explodes as well, cause it was simply too close to the car and that caused the building to come tumbling down because the explosion was so large and disastrous and when the building came down it kills thousands of people meanwhile my marble pieces are rolling down the street and fall into the abyss. But wait- it's not the abyss, it's a beautiful yard of green grass and blue, pink, and purple sky with a beautiful tree in the distance and in that tree, if you look way high up into the tree you will see a girl, a girl of short curly brown hair and she was wearing a white dress with straps and ruffles on her chest and at the bottom of her dress where you would find her scarred knees and legs and as you see her sitting in that tree, you feel a water drop fall from where she is sitting, when you fly up to her face you see her softly smiling with tears streaming down her face you see her round big glasses start to fog so she decides to clean them with her dress and when she takes her glasses off, You see her big, beautiful, brown eyes, filled with tears but then she climbs down her big green tree that hides her pain from the world. As she puts her feet on the soft green grass, she slowly starts to walk away from the tree and as she's walking she steps and falls on the broken marbles and when she looks at her arms, knees, feet, and hands, she sees all the glass pieces and blood everywhere on her so much so that it was on her dress and when she sat down on the soft luscious grass, she one by one pulled every single piece out and when she was finally done pulling the pieces out she stood up, brushed her bloody dress off and smiled softly and kept walking away while leaving a bloody foot print trail on the soft, beautiful grass, then suddenly as she was walking she felt something uneasy then as she turned around to look back at the big tree she saw the grass was gone and there was nothing but dirt and a black sky and as for that tree that hide her hurt from the world... Well it was burning to ashes then suddenly she felt a cold hand on her shoulder and when she turned around, she gazed in the eyes of Death, when she was gazing at Death, she put her once soft and elegant hands on Deaths face and said "You are so beautiful and it saddens me that so many people fear your beauty and pain" Thats when death held her hand to its cold face, it said back to her "They fear my pain and beauty because it's a permanent fear of mystery of ecstasy" when Death looked at the beautiful girl, Death saw a pained and hopeless girl who once was loved by all and praised by many, almost as if she was worshipped like a goddess, that's when Death looked the girl strongly in her big brown eyes and asked her "Why do you feel so much pain and anger and hatred, when you are worshipped by many?" that's when the girl looked at Death with wide, teary eyes and says "because no one worshipped me.. they only worshipped my beauty, they never cared about my heart and mind, let alone...me" then Death took the girls hand off its cheek and slowly walked away from the girl, the girl was confused and chased after Death until she felt her body falling backwards as she was looking up, she saw the black skies looking further and further away from her as she fell deeper and deeper, while she was falling she looked at her blood stained dress and saw the blood was disappearing and she looked at her body and saw her cut skin turning into scars, as she was falling she could feel her pain and sorrow slowly becoming nothing she felt as if nothing mattered, whether she finally had met the end of her brainless falling or whether if Death would rescue her from her own mind prison "Maybe Life will give me another chance" she wondered as she was still falling in blackness then suddenly she closes her eyes tight and when she opens them she finds herself on a swing facing towards the sunset, as she looks over to her left she sees the beautiful Life standing next to her...... "Why are YOU so beautiful yet fearful and painful like Death?" Life looks at her and says "Because you have only chosen to see the bad, I can be so much more full of beauty, that is if you choose to see it" when the girl heard those words she pondered them and dissected every word that Life said, she looked at the ground, softly smiles once more and starts to swing, as she swings she looks at the sunset and has tears streaming down her face, that's when she says "So if I'm not living and if I'm not dead, what am I?" that's when Death whispers over her shoulder "You are just simply here" the girl hops off the swing and looks at her feet, walks in a circle, looks at the sun once more and the girl waits a moment and suddenly she screams. When she screams, wind blows in her face and the wind brushes through her hair, Life and Death disappear like ashes in the wind, Once again she is alone...In her mind, when the girl goes to fall backwards to lay down on the grass that's when she hits the ground and she looks up toward the sky and sees a building crashing down and she immediately gets up and starts to run in fear and as she runs, she gets her dress snagged on a broken metal bar, so she tugs on her dress ripping it and dirtying it, finally she comes to a stop from her running and that's when you see her once more, you see her confused and distraught then she looks around and notices everything is torn down or on fire or blown apart so she runs in a somewhat together building and runs up the stairs to the roof, where she sees the world has ended right before her eyes, you look at her as she sits down in disbelief that's when she sees a broken sharp metal piece on the ground then she grabs it and held it to her chest, as she pulls it back she whispers something to herself then....... she stabs herself. You see her on the ground bleeding out of her mouth and chest and you realize she's really dead. And you the reader you are probably thinking to yourself "what did she whisper? Why would she stab herself after all that? Why would she end it all just like that?" well you look at her dead body, you lay down next to her and gaze into her now sad, numb and dead brown eyes, you can't bare to see her like this anymore so you close your eyes and drift into a deep soft sleep, that's when you wake up and you get up and you look in the mirror on your wall next to your bed and there.... right there... right there you see the beautiful big brown eyed girl with curly brown hair and soft lips, then that's when you come close to the mirror and quietly whisper "I want to live."