Big STEPS -Chapters from 1 to 5

Mud everywhere on the road, so the bus had to slow its speed as we headed to Montana. The air around us still smells rainy and it's pretty dark too, but at the end of the road, on the horizon the sun is rising as I can see a beam of purplish orange color. Funny part is that this is the first time in my life to see sun-rise and I hope it's the last time. Not that I hate sun-rise or anything but it's just not the way I imagined to see my first sun-rise like that!! I thought it may have to be more hmm romantic?? With a prince charming beside me, on a green hill with lots of flowers blossoming, and birds singing around us.. Beaut- what am I saying!! Am I actually day dreaming?? Oh God I hope that I'm not going crazy from now.. Anyway back to reality , magen is totally not enjoying the view as she is sleeping beside me , actually no one else in the freaking bus is awake except me and the driver .. Anyway let me recall two days ago to see how that all started and ended with me and the seventy years old man , half bold , wrinkles all over his body and third of his teeth are missing but look at the bright side he still flirts with girls in his grandchildren age.. This is the bus driver... How the hell did I ended enjoying this view with him!! Me and him.... together watching the sun-rise? Ewww that's way below my day-dreams! Way way  below!!

Two days ago, me and magen where in my dressing room packing my bag after we finished hers in her house... About mage she is my best friend since kindergarten , we held each other in our ups and downs , and yeah we had tons of fights but they were never too serious as we got together again at the end of the day smiling and laughing and saying sorry about what we did earlier .. I can't live without her; she is my soul sister... “Natalie darlin' dinner is ready!! come downstairs you and mag to eat , then continue your packing thing !!" and here you are meeting mum , " AND no eating upstairs , JUST FOR YOUR INFORMATION!!" ohh I love you too mum ..

Suzan Storme , a mother to four kids , a hard worker , works  two jobs one at the morning and other at the evening , and studies to take masters as a vet and over all Suzan is my loving mum that just screamed at me from downstairs .. Mum has been through a lot actually , she left my grandparents (her mum and dad) to marry my dad who has been unveiled after four years of marriage .. To be more clear he abandoned us , me when I was three and  my twin brothers who where around one years old , let alone that my mum was pregnant in her second month .. Poor mum , she had to raise all the four of us by her own , she didn't hesitate for sending the four of us to the most fancy school in our village , Rosemary school .. Overall she did a great job , I think , in raising us as tomorrow I’ll be eighteen and my twin brothers Adrian and Mason just became sixteen last month and Jordan will be fifteen next month .. Oh boy the second I remember the idea about reaching eighteen , I freak .. Weird , right ? as each one prays to reach eighteen where they will be free at last ! But what it really means or for me at least , freedom is over and prison is waiting a head of us .. No no , not jell , of course not , I mean college , which is worst from jell , in my point of view .. I just can't imagine that childish moments are over no more making up excuses for not doing the homework , no more planning pranks on freshmen , no more ditching on a guy for a more prettier or badass one , no more lots of things that are uncountable. To sum it up ,  no more LIFE WITH FUN!! Only what we will face is being an adult and so much complicated things following it..

"Silver or gold?? let me see.." mag puts two earrings near my ear to see which one most fits my skin and oval face .. " Totally silver , so it matches your tanned skin and your shirt tomorrow evening .. Am I right or am I talking to myself here??" ... " Yes, it's okay .. Whatever" .. “What’s wrong Nat? Why are you so low like that ??" ... " Mag I really don't want to go to that college , it's just not the right place to be !!" I said that when deep in my heart knows that I'm wrong and college is really the right place , and really who am I telling that!! Magen is the most girl in our grade that is looking forward to the day she enters college since elementary!! " Nat doesn't say that .. It's the place we will begin our life career from and we'll have so much fun there as we are together" she gave me a tight hug and then break to see my face " let’s go downstairs or your mum will come here with a baseball stick and shouting to kill us " she made that pirate face with my hair-brush in her hand as a baseball stick , so all I could do is laugh and stand up , closing the room's light and follow her down the stairs ..