Paint you Naked [MINSUNG]

18

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Jisung hated himself. He absolutely hated himself.

Everyone was out for the day except Changbin and Felix. The taller was cooking lunch while Chuu and Hyunjin had headed out to go to some store they both wanted to check out, seeming to find common interests lately. Jisung had also went out to buy groceries for whatever weird thing Felix wanted to cook that he heard about when he went somewhere the day before, and then he sat on the sofa, hating himself.

He hated that Felix had allowed them to have a free day in the middle of the second week there, because his brain was not filled with maps, languages, fights over lunch and stupid silly stuff.

No, his brain was filled with the night he had ruined, the night he failed to go with Chuu and finally take that important next step in their relationship.

He hated himself even more after his brain finally processed what had happened.

He cheated.

How could he be taking it so lightly? How did he even dare to try and take that step with her after he cheated on her with someone else?

With a guy.

After he lost his virginity.

With a guy.

Jisung let his head fall back desperately, fiddling with his fingers and hearing his heart race in his chest.

"This is not working. Jisung, can you call Hyunjin or Chuu and tell them they better eat somewhere outside since they are out already? We should also go somewhere." The Australian glared at the pan. "I have no idea what I did wrong but this is not edible."

Changbin chuckled, kissing his boyfriend's cheek and caressing his waist.

"I'm sure it's harder to cook that what they told you. How about you two get dressed and go to that restaurant you've been eyeing with the pastas?"

Felix smiled, heading over to Jisung and pulling him up.

"No!"

"Shut up and go get dressed, we need quality time I feel like I barely talk to you anymore."

Jisung let himself be thrown into his bedroom, sighing and placing a hand on his chest.

He needed to tell someone, he needed to talk to someone about it.

Chan?

"And you better get ready quick!", he heard it in English, and his stomach twirled.

Felix.

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Changbin had stayed home, and Jisung found himself in a restaurant he had been begging to go since the beginning of the trip, not able to enjoy the amazing pasta that was served to him.

Felix was on his phone, laughing at something he had seen, and the shorter's brain was running crazy.

Should he really tell him?

He needed to talk about it. He needed to understand what on earth had happened.

But how could he even tell him that?

Hey, so hm... I might have cheated in Chuu, like an absolute idiot, and not just a kiss no, the whole thing. I cheated on the most incredible girl I have ever known. What? Who's the girl? Fun thing, it's not-

"Jisung!", the shorter's thoughts were cut off by Felix calling him, a smile on his face and a raised eyebrow. "I called you three times, what were you thinking about?" Jisung let out a breath, closing his eyes. "Ji?" The younger's voice was careful this time. "What's bothering you? You're scaring me."

"I did something shitty. So so shitty."

It was a whisper, but even with the noise from around them, the plates in the kitchen behind the wall, the people talking in different languages, Felix could hear it could and clear. He furrowed his eyebrows, leaning in front to be closer to the squirrel looking boy.

"How shitty?"

"I want to punch myself.", he whined. "So badly. I have no idea what was going through my mind, I still don't have!", his eyes grew wide and he started waving his hands as he talked, making Felix gasp in surprise and secure their glasses to the table, hoping they would not fall with the sudden burst. "I feel so weird all the time, and I just let myself do this stupid mistake and-"

"Jisung. Breathe, calm down. What happened?"

Jisung gulped, dropping his hands and sighing again.

"Promise me you won't hate me."

"Ji-"

"Just promise me."

Felix bit his lip, nodding slightly.

"I promise, what could you have done that is so bad that would lead me to hate y-"

"I cheated." He stated, eyes on his lap. "I cheated on Chuu."

The next few seconds were silent on the table, and the youngest of the two could literally hear his own heart pounding against his chest.

That only made him hate himself more. How could he be feeling nervous about telling his bestfriend that? He should be embarrassed. More than he was.

"Oh. That is shitty.", Felix finally talked. He leaned back on the chair as their eyes met, sighing at the look in his bestfriend's face. "Why?"

Jisung shrugged.

"I-"

"Don't give me shit, Jisung. Why, who, when? I'm not trying to be mean, nor pressuring you but-"

"I know, Lix, the thing is-"

"cheating on Chuu with a random girl in Paris isn't it and-" for some reason, the simple word "girl" made Jisung break, he choked a weird noise and dropped his face, interrupting Felix once again and dropping his head, tears falling down his face as a mix of emotions clouted his brain. Felix stared at him for a few seconds, until he realized the soft shaking of his bestfriend's shoulders. "Jisung? Why are you-" he got up and kneeled next to his bestfriend, cupping his face, not caring about what everyone else around them could think. "There's something else, isn't it?"

Jisung nodded, choking another sob. Feeling tired, feeling terrible, he gasped for air as Felix rubbed his back, hating the look on his bestfriend's face.

He was worried.

Jisung didn't deserve anyone to be worried about him, not after what he had done.

"S-sorry-"

"Ji just tell me why it is, please... we can talk about it and I promise I won't get more mad I just hate seeing you like this."

The older closed his eyes, gripping Felix's hand as he whimpered.

"I didn't... I-I I-it was not..." Felix nodded to show he was listening, the lunch forgotten on the table. Jisung gripped his hand more. "Not a g-girl."

Felix's eyes widened at the statement, and Jisung broke some crying again.

The Australian was left to hug his bestfriend, assure the lunch was paid and tell everyone who asked about the crying boy he was just homesick. He wrapped an arm around Jisung's shoulder as led him outside the restaurant, to the side of the street, hidden in the crowds that stood on a line for something happening a few doors away.

Then he hugged him. Strongly, properly, like he hasn't in ages. He let Jisung cry all he needed to cry, no questions asked, no comments made. He let the younger bury his face on his neck and patted his hair for as long as Jisung needed.

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I love jilix

And I forgot yesterday I'm so sorry

Alexa play Not Shy by Itzy