The Fault In Our Stars 2

Chapter 1

I've been depressed lately. Haven't gone to the support group after Augustus passed away, and after looking for the hidden papers that i thought would be hiding in the literal heart of jesus.
I'm completely new to myself. Well because a) i don't have the third space that i thought existed between me and the love of my life, b)i don't have someone around me who thinks i'm hot and beautiful , c) i don't have anyone recommending a book for me to read. My life really sucked after Augustus passed away. Actually it was like climbing mount everest * don't take it literally* for me to get my heart pumping again. Lastly i think that life doesn't goes the way you plan it , cause world ain't a wish granting factory .
* a door knock* ⬜️⬛️⬜️⬛️⬜️⬛️⬜️⬛️⬜️⬛️
⚪️Wait coming.
Mom: hey sweet heart, i got good news for you .
⚪️What mom?
Mom: Your favorite show is starting this sunday
⚪️Well mom look at the day, its still a cloudy wednesday .
Mom: well they are going to show the contestants after 30 minutes, after all this season is extraordinary....
Because the first reason is that they got: TYRA BANKS on it and secondly now on AMERICA's NEXT TOP MODEL, your not just going to see girls posing like s*** but also the hot guys. ..
⚪️Hahaha mom i think somebody's Excited
Mom: well baby get yourself into shower and then we are on the AMERICA's NEXT TOP MODEL 21 GIRLS VS GUYS.
⚪️Alright mom, i'll be better on my way to the shower room now.
Mom: don't forget to switch yourself to Philip the oxygen tank.
⚪️Got ya mom.
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I think that after all i'm not alone at all i have the memories that can be used or remembered forever. I know that knowing Augustus Waters was like having an opportunity in life like meeting your favorite stars, even though i was not into stars afterall. All i had in my mind was these novels like AIA -an imperial affection and how could i get the prince of dawn out of my mind. Actually i don't want that story to get out of my mind even i turn older than now, cause that book served as a little bridge between me and augustus. After he gave me that book i found out that it had sequels to it so i purchased them and often read them. And guess what ? After reading those books i would go to my garden that is located at the backside of my house and look up and state the summary to sky, cause that way i feel like augustus might be looking and listening to me. Cause people usually say that if you love someone they don't die, well they mean to say that they don't die in our memories.cause memories are like photographs, they keep on reminding us that we had some GOOD TIMES.
After taking the shower i got out of the room wearing red pajama and augustus' jersey.
⚪️a matter of fact is that Mr. Waters was just visiting me, to check if i was doing well.
Mr.Waters: hey hazel, i see that your're missing augustus so much that you don't even go out of the house and explore new things.
⚪️Mr waters i don't miss him. Because when you say miss, the person your missing is far away from you... And yet augustus is just right here *stroking the jersey*, actually mr waters every single being in this world have and have to die one day , but they are still alive in our precious heart.
⚪️And another thing is that i think i will visit him at the cemetery