I thought about my whole life whilst I was getting ready for another day at school. And I mean my whole life.
My full name is Rebecca Jones. I am 17 years old and I was born on the 20th September 1994; 20 minutes younger than my twin Ryan. I also have a 8 year old brother Charlie and a 4 year old sister Evie. I live in Holmes Chapel, Cheshire. Yes fan girls, the same place as Harry Styles. I live next door to the Styles and Harry was my best friend ever since I was born. Me and Haz have always been inseparable. One of my bedroom windows opens all the way and there's about a 10cm gap between the next house - Harry's. Harry's bedroom window is opposite mine and we always used to leave them permanently unlocked so we went through the window whenever we wanted. Harry left for boot camp 2 days after my 16th birthday, I'm nearly 8 months younger than him. Even though he promised he'd come back to see me, the day he left was the last time I saw him face-to-face. Yeah for the first couple weeks he rang and texted and skyped me but that all stopped; and I went to every live show and results show for the first 4 weeks, after that I stopped going. I mean, if he'd forgotten about me why should I remember him? Ryan stopped going too because he's always been protective of me and didn't want me home alone for the weekend. I don't even care anymore, Harry can take his friendship and shove it somewhere I shouldn't mention.
Your probably thinking that what happened with Charlie earlier was normal that he doesn't like shouting, but its not normal at all, its unhealthy. It started about 4 years ago when Evie was 1 year old. My dad has never been the best at the whole marriage and father thing, I always knew that and so did Ryan; but I never thought it would get this bad. It started with little arguments but they kept getting bigger and bigger. After a while they were shouting at each other every day. Each time they fought I would climb through the window to Harry's. Ryan came with me but we both refused to leave our siblings so me and Haz would get Charlie, some of his toys, Evie and Evie's sleepy chair thing through the window and sit there until the shouting stopped, which was most likely when we saw our dad drive off. Anne always knew about it, most of the time she would look after Evie and Gemma would play with Charlie if we didn't want to. It went on like this for nearly 2 months until something bad happened. They were arguing again and we had just got Chaz and Evie through the window so they were sitting in his room and I was about to climb through until we heard my mum. Screaming. And then slamming doors and the sound of a car driving off. Ryan tried to stop me but I ran downstairs to see my mum sitting on the floor crying. With a big slap mark on her cheek. He hit her! I was so angry but tried to stay calm for my mum. Ryan went nuts, he was shouting and punching the walls but I made him stop whilst I went upstairs to get my brother and sister. I told Harry what happened and he got Anne who came over with him and looked after us. I thought that was the end of it, I thought my dad would come home and my mum would make him leave but no. It was nearly 10pm and Charlie and Evie were asleep and me, Haz, Ryan, mum and Anne were watching a film when we got a phone call. I didn't know what was going on but when the call ended my mum looked like she was going to cry again. She moved and sat in between me and my twin and the next sentence was one that I'll never forget. "Your dad's had a car accident..... he didn't make it"
No matter how angry I had been at my dad, I loved him loads. I know Ryan felt the same, but he's great at holding in his feelings, he doesn't care about himself, he looks after mum and us 3. I don't remember much after that just that I cried and cried. That's why Charlie cant cope with shouting, because it always scared him and because last time there was shouting hid dad never came back. We still haven't told Charlie the truth about his dad, were waiting till he's older. This is why I never fight with my mum or my little siblings even though there so annoying or Ryan but he's great so theres no need. And this is why I was so cut up when Harry left. I cant lose anyone else.
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Hiya! :D
I know its not great at the moment, its just filling you in on Becca's life but it will get better soon! Comment good things, bad things, don't mind! :D Again still haven't checked it through
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