Emison Maybe this time

Chapter 4: The kissing Rock

Alison's POV

Me: Girls can you please stay with Emmy tonight while Em and I have our talk?
H: Can I just take her home? She's adorbs Ali, I cant wait to have one of my own. I cant wait for Caleb to meet her.
S: Take your time ladies, we love hanging out with Emilie, she's our new bestfriend.
Emmy: I am, Spencer? Yehey!!

I have never seen Emmy this jolly, jumping up and down.

Emmy: Mommy where are you going??
me: Em and I will just go out for a walk, your new bestfriends will play with you and tell you stories and style your hair while I'm gone, is that ok with you?
Emmy: Yes mommy, we'll play dress up and watch Little Mermaid. Yey!!!!

I kissed my baby goodbye. And turned to Em, who has been so quiet all night.

me: Lets go?
Em: Sure.
Emily kissed Emmy on the cheeks, and whispered something in her ear that made her smile. My heart flutters.
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As soon as we are out the door, I reached for Emily's hand and intertwined it with mine. I dont know how she would react and I was surprised when she held mine tighter. We walked out the driveway really close to each other, our shoulders brushing each other. We walked in silence for a couple of minutes.

me: I know a place where we could talk privately
Em: Really? Where?
me: Follow me.
I lead the way, I remember the first and last time Em and I went there, I told her a tale about a place so romantic that couples go to when they want to kiss. When youre there you could feel the presence of past lovers ghost spying on you pushing you to do it. I may have made that story up, but that place held a very special place in my heart. "The Kissing Rock" as I called it, is where I knew I was inlove with Emily. I even wrote our initials on the rock EF+AD. I have lied about so many things in the past, one of them is my feelings for Emily, I dont want to commit the same mistake again, I may never have another chance after this.

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Em: The kissing rock??
me: Yes, this is a very special place for me
Em: Mine too. I remember kissing you here for the second time, and writing our initials on here, the night of our graduation.
me: We had something special right? Please tell me I'm not the only one who felt it.
Em: No, youre not the only one who felt it Ali, I felt it the moment I first saw you, back when I couldnt even explain to myself why I feel drawn to my bestfriend, why I like girls, back when I couldnt say the word gay out loud, I felt it for as long as I can remember Ali. But we were just too different back then.
me: Back when I was a manipulative bitch, who thinks I could control everybody.
Em: Yes, you were, but I always saw past that, I dont know why I felt the need to save you. Your flaws made me love you even more.
me: Im sorry I made you think your feelings for me were totally one-sided. I cared more about what other people think of me, I didnt realize I hurt you the most. And I told you I liked you but left without saying goodbye when it got hard.
Em: what happened to you Ali? Tell me everything. No secrets this time please. I want to understand how you just disappeared like that and acted like we never happened.
me: When we first kiss in the library I knew I felt something for you but I ignored it because I was the Queen B, I cant be gay or they'll laugh at me, so I tried so hard to keep my feelings for you a secret. But I fell for you even more, you saw the best version of me, the person I want to be, you never stopped caring even if everyone is ready to turn their backs against me. I finally had the courage to tell my dad that I was gay the night we went here, and that I was inlove with you and he wasnt happy about it, he threatened to disown me if I would embarass the family, when I woke up next morning I saw Jason waiting for me outside the house, my suitcases are already packed. My Dad gave me a plane ticket to Paris, at first I didnt wanna go but he told me he'll do everything he can to forfeit your scholarship at UCLA if I stayed. I took the ticket and left without saying goodbye to no one. He took my phone and and erased all contacts, he monitored all my calls and messages and blocked your number and the girls as well. My first year there was hell, I cant remember being sober, I drowned myself with alcohol hoping that I wouldnt have to go through everyday missing you and wanting to see you, but I wouldnt risk for you to lose your scholarship. I was thankful that Cece and Jason was there. Then I got pregnant with Emmy, from a one night stand, I couldnt even remember his name or his face, that's when I hit rock bottom. I was in rehab and support group while I was pregnant. My parents wouldnt even talk to me, and I have no friends to turn to aside from Cece. When I gave birth to Emmy, I promised her I would never leave her the way I left you, I would never commit the same mistake again. For some time I thought I have moved on from you, I thought that you deserve someone better than me and if I have moved on, you will too. There were nights when I would cry myself to sleep because Im missing you. When you graduated from college, I thought I'd have a shot at making things right, I would come home and tell you everything that's happened so I contacted Hanna and asked if she knows where you are but she told me that you stopped talking to them, I called Spencer and Aria and they gave me the same answer. So I stopped looking for you and let fate take its course. If were meant for each other, fate will bring us back together. And here we are now. I'm sorry Emily, if I ruined your life, Im sorry I hurt you the most.

Tears streamed down my face. I never told anyone everything that I went through, I buried my face in my hands as sobs escaped my throat. Then Emily wrapped her arms around me.

Em: Im sorry Ali, I didnt know. All these years I thought you only played with my feelings, I didnt know what else to think when I learned that you were gone without saying goodbye. I called you a million times and when you didnt answer I thought you were so done with me. I was done being your puppet. But I want you to know I never stopped loving you Ali, there were nights when I thought I was gonna die from missing you, I wanted to hear your voice so bad, or just a proof that you were okay. I love you Ali, always and forever. Do you think we could start over?

She lifted my face and looked me straight in the eyes, tears falling from her eyes and mine.

me: I would love to Emily. We deserve a second chance.

She smiled and moved closer to me. The next thing I knew, her lips is touching mine, and we kissed passionately for what felt like eternity, only stopping to catch our breath.

Em: I love you Alison
me: I love you Emily. Always and Forever.
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