I was happy and joyful for life was amazing but life has a funny way of changing. I'v told you my scars but not why they are there, It all started with my parents now they are not happy with their life so they love and enjoy making my life just as miserable but it wasn't just that you see I wasn't and still not accepted in my family.... for I am someone who stands up for my faith and they all hate that and because I didn't have the perfect friends I was always called a devil child for it cause they listened to bad music and had a bad mouth but they don't get I'm my own person my friends don't show me no one does or can! But my parents never saw that cause if there is one thing you can count on my mom and dad for is they always have a judging eye. And one night it got out of control and we got into it big time I couldn' t take it anymore so I ran and I kept running after hours in the night I cooled off a littlebit I return and it all goes to hell....
I realized how much they hated me for they took the only two things I had in life away from me and I knew they we're right about one thing after that I was a demon I couldn't stop they took my closes thing I had to a friend someone who was with me from the start and my faith which was the ONE thing keeping me ME!! After that we have had to many fights and I was weak and only so I found an escape my blade I kept it close and whenever we got into it I'd run away and cut myself til the anger and pain went away for I was lost in the crimson river flowing from my arms I didn't feel pain from cutting but I did feel sorrow and darkness and I didn't like what I was turning into but it was better then what I was with my family....
I was lost and alone but for some reason I wanted it that way not that I was hiding from being hated or from the world but from the fact I was always told I was worthless and no one cared and for awhile they they were right! But that changed after sometime after I got closer to my God I kept falling and couldn't stand I was being pulled down by my anger and rage for people in my life who are suppose to love and accepted me but they didn't and don't I have moved past that but that was always in the way of me and God there was no way around it until my family and I shut each other out for we will never be a family or anything close... I have made my way through that and made some incredibly close friends who became my family they loved me and I loved them without any thought I knew I was where I was meant to be but that was pulled away from me too cause they kept me for God and I couldn't I just couldn't now I have amazing people in my life tho it can be hard I know I'm not alone.....
