Can It Be Real? (Zayn Malik)

Zayn Leaving One Direction

I'm pretty sure you know what I'm about to write.

"Zayn leaving One Direction"

I have cried so many times and it hurts so bad to see my favorite member of the band leave.

I thought he left because of us Directioners because we didn't give him the space and privacy he needed/wanted.

I remember coming back from school and going on Twitter seeing my timeline blowing up saying "Zayn leaving One Direction" I thought it was a rumor so I didn't believe it at first. But as I was watching E!News I realized that it was true. I cried for like 15 minutes and my mom watched me telling me how ridiculous I am for obsessing over a boyband and she said "all bands break up, its bound to happen" and it's true. But I didn't expect it to be so fast. After I stopped crying I hanged with my friends and it got my mind off of It. But as soon as I went back online I would cry all over again for an 1 hour.

Then, I thought that it was Perrie fault Zayn left. I always loved Perrie. I just don't like that she's with Zayn but hey we all think that. But If Zayn is happy I'm happy.

But the reason I thought it was Perrie fault is because Zayn was seen with another girl and it trending everywhere. And everyone was like "Zayn cheated on fiancée Perrie Edwards" and invading his personal life. And since they invaded his private life he said......

"I want to be a normal 22-year-old who is able to relax and have some private time out of the spotlight"

I thought it had to do with Perrie. Like... She told him to leave or he didn't want it happening again. Basically what I'm trying to say is that he didn't want his fame to mess up his future with Perrie. And I'm being selfish because I don't want zayn to go, just to make Perrie happy, but then again he is happy with her so I don't have a say in that.

But I blamed it on us, for not giving him his space etc. but I came to realize that all bands eventually break up. Like how my my mom said with the backstreet boys, boys to men, the Beatles, insinc, and all the other boy bands. But To me One Direction is different from them.

In the future I do believe Zayn will reunite with the boys once he gets his life straight in order.

It brings tears to my eyes writing this. But I will always love Zayn💞 he's the reason why I'm not so shy anymore or why I have more confidence to do more stupid shit and not give a fuck on what anyone has to say.

I agree, one direction won't be the same. But I rather have Niall, Louis, Liam, and Harry than no one direction.

~bryanna😭💔

"Where do broken hearts go?" #fouralbum