fml. fml fml fml shit always goes fuckin wrong I hate this Sm I hate life I just hate it
why ??? why the fuck would she do that...? she outed me to them. she outed me to them in front of me, acted like it was a joke and all I could do was just laugh along ha ha ha ha ur so funny ......
i hate it. it makes me feel so disgusting. worst of all. I sit at the back of the class and someone entered the room and so everyone looked back and I sit near the door and I was near crying like tears in my eyes so why the fuck
she's my friend too she should know better we literally got upset becuz she outed someone else on Monday so why do it again, but in front of me, about me? if she outed me to them in front of me who else would she tell?! thank god they didn't believe her they're all so homophobic...
why why why...? I just... don't get why someone would feel the need to tell someone else their sexuality when it's literally irrelevant and doesn't even matter to them, especially when she knows that person was homophobic so why.?
it makes me feel yucky. and ashamed that im like this and idek why. she even told her brother. who bullies lgbtq. I just. fuck. idek.
this week has sucked. I broke up with my boyfriend because I found out he was homophobic and then next thing you know he says the n word. which is so wrong because he told me he wasn't racist and stuff I can't believe that I believed him. he even viewed my story where I attempted to expose him for saying it and all he said was (this is replying to the story btw) "why do u still have me saved as loml" like what??? that's ur concern??? fucking hell I just hate this all
i don't even want to continue this week I just wanna sleep all day and not even go to school at all because each day something shitty happens that may seem small to most people but I always make a big deal out of it or something and I can't stop thinking about it for the rest of the day.
it just ruins my whole mood and I just feel fucking crappy for the rest of the week even. and I obviously can't show it because I'm meant to be happy and always laughing and smiling and all these things but they're all just habits I can't get rid of...
I actually want to show emotions not just smiling all the time. I hate it I hate it I hate it... most of the time my smile isn't even real. I just do it to just idek why I smile anymore what even is the point of smiling when I don't feel genuine joy? like seriously what is the point?
I don't even know anymore. all I want to do is just sleep all day and never wake up again. I just want to dream about good things, a happier time, a time when life wasn't so hard to navigate through.
