I stay up all most the night
Just to watch the stars
I wake every morning,
If just to count the scars
I dream while I'm awake
So I can control my mind
But at night, nothing's fake:
Nightmares haunt that time.
There have been entire weeks
I did not leave my bed
There have been eternities
I pretended I were dead
I eat once a day
If I feel like getting food
I don't take my pills
Though I know I should
And I clench my teeth
And march through hell
I struggle with my demons
But at least I hide it well.
