Loving Blindly [Harry Styles]

Bonus chapter

Dedicated to zayn malik
Ain't nobody as dope as you x

Amy's POV

"Zayn?" I ask as I walk through the hill Zayn once pulled me during a barbecue they once held.

His text to me alerted me so much I all but ran to his house and kicked open the door, had not Trisha open it before my heel ever met the wood. It was short, vague, and had my heart beating so fast it made me wanna puke.

From: zayn x

Hey, meet me at the hill pls, its important. -Zjm

I dashed out of my house and went to Zayn's as fast as I could, and here I am now.

"Amy," I hear someone say and I turn my head. I smile, seeing my best friend sitting on the top of the hill, legs spread in front of him. His appearance has changed so much over the couple of years, he was sporting what seemed like a ponytail, keeping his long hair from his face, a shirt with a band i probably don't know as its design in front and some skinny jeans. One thing hasn't changed at all- his smile. Still genuine, still crooked, still beautiful.

"Hey Jadork," I say and sit down next to him. He chuckles "so, what's up?"

"I-" he hesitates and looks down.

"Zayn?" I ask in all seriousness "what's wrong?"

"Look, um" he bit his lip "fuck it's so hard to say this"

"Just say it," I let out a nervous chuckle "I mean, it can't be that bad."

He looks me dead in the eye.

"Oh,' I bite my lip "that bad?"

He fell down the grass with a sigh "look, just promise me that the way you look at me won't change despite what i'll be saying to you okay? Promise me."

I look down at him and nod "I promise."

"I'm leaving." He said.

I let out a series of nervous chuckles "leaving like what leaving the world are you-" I freeze on the spot "ARE YOU DYING?"

"What?!" Zayn rose from the grass.

"What are you sick are you gonna die oh my god why did you just tell me YOU'RE FUCKING DYING AND I'M SITTING HERE-"

"Amy, Amy, calm down I'm not-"

"I'M FUCKING CRYING ZAYN WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME HOW LONG DO YOU HAVE LEFT I-"

"AMY!" He shouts "I'm not dying!"

I was sobbing and his eyes soften as he hugs me to his chest, wiping away the tears from my eyes. "You asshole."

He chuckles "I'm leaving you guys, I meant, not the world."

"W-what?" I rose from his chest and looked at him "what why, you're leaving us? Me?"

He gulps "yeah."

"Why?" I say breathlessly as more tears fell down from my eyes "for how long I don't-"

"I'll be traveling the world, Amy, just- try to find myself you know?

"You, Liam, Harry, Niall and Louis are the best things that ever happened to me but," he looks at the sky "I decided I don't know who I am yet."

I shake my head "no, no" I hug his torso "don't go. What about Perrie?"

"Uh, we're on some sort of break, right now."

"Have you told the boys?" I ask, wiping away my tears and snot unattractively.

"I was planning to, but considering how you took it, I don't know how to anymore."

"Well th- they deserve to know, Zayn. You can't just leave with no explanation they'll be heartbroken."

"I-"

"Look if you're gonna be leaving it's better to deal with the tears now rather than later on. They'll be mad at you, you guys are basically brothers." I persuade him.

He sighs and closes his eyes. I cuddle up against his side, he wraps his arms around me and rests his chin at the top of my head.

"When will you be back?" I dared to ask.

"When I finally find out who I am." He says to me.

"Well, you better like, write, or call, or text, or skype okay? Don't just fall off the face of the earth, okay?"

"Okay. Look, how about this, I'll send you a postcard from every single place I go to."

"Promise?" I look up at him.

"I promise. I also promise, that I'll come back to you guys, at the right time, okay?"

"Promise me, that you'll tell the boys, send postcards and come back to us, promise me."

"I promise Amy."

"I'll miss you you asshole."

"I'll miss you too."

"I love you."

"I love you too, forever Amy. Forever."

^*^

3 years later

"Babe, you ready to go yet?" I sigh and let go of the postcards Zayn has sent me the past three years, all with little letters at the back.

Zayn kept two of his promises- one he told the boys before he left, and two, he kept sending postcards from every single country he's been going to, and honestly, I'm really happy for Zayn. He said he was slowly finding himself and that he'll be coming back soon.

He also kept contact with the boys, skyping whenever there was internet and almost every single chance possible. It was safe to say we all missed him.

Today was my birthday and the boys said they all had a surprise for me. Something that will completely knock me off my feet.

I just sighed. I miss my bestfriend so bad.

We reach the venue and Harry blindfolded me with a small smile. Once tightly put over my eyes, he lead me out of the car. And I was nervous.

"Harry, if anything scares me I will so chop your balls off" I say as my hands outstretch, trying to touch something but failing. I hear Harry chuckling behind me.

"You'll love it, trust me." He says and suddenly he stops walking behind me making me stop as well. "Okay, here we are."

He removes the blindfold and I let my eyes adjust for a few minutes, but in front of me was something black and blurry. As my eyes adjust it also widened as I see my surprise.

"Zayn!"

Ok hey hey hey

So zayn left and idk what to do with my life

Im honestly so sad and tired. Stay strong babes he'll come back. Hopefully.

Love you all, thank you for supporting loving blindly till now.

Bye peeps