infinity (2021)

[01] help yourself

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CHAPTER 1 |  help yourself

This whole story is a flash back

I immediately run to my room and shut my door as soon as I get home

" What hell is wrong with me ", I cry into my bed

" Why, why, why "

My voice cracks," Why not me "

" Huh, why not me! " I throw the group photo on the floor, "I've done everything to impress them "I knock the vase off the nightstand, " so what the hell am I doing wrong !" I accidentally bomb into the book selves and a book comes falling down on me

' how to be pretty' I throw the book across the room and go to the bathroom

I lock the door and look at myself threw the mirror 

I grab my makeup remover and begin to wipe off my makeup ignoring the tears

" Maybe I should try harder  and lower my expectations ", I tuck the hair strands in front of me being my ears

" I'm nothing like her no matter how hard I try ", I throw the cotton swabs in the trash and look back into the mirror, "if I get more pretty do you think he will like me?  If I get skinnier do you think they will like me? do you think they'll like me? Made I won't be an outcast anymore "

Beauty makes people happy right?

I turn the light off in the bathroom and just cry in my bed with the sound of thunder  ringing in my ears

the next day 

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I take deep breath " I can do this " I say to myself threw the mirror

"I got this, just... do what you do best okay? "

I place a smile on my face and head downstairs with my backpack on my back

I give my mom and dad a kiss on the cheek  before I begin walking to school

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" Oh look it's the walking slug " Tyler yells while everyone joins in to laugh with him

" ha ha ha " ugly bitch

He walks up to me hooking his arm around me with his gang behind me" Where are your parents huh? "

I aggressively  try to push off his hand but he grips my shoulder, hard

" Not here you blind bat " Is what I wish I could say but instead I just stay silent

" Hm? Has the slug gone mute too? Damn "

I shake him off me shoulder, " ugh just fuck off will you "

" Aw it looks like someone's parents didn't show up for bringing your parents to school day "