The weather never tore us apart (kuroken angst)

Maybe just one try.

        Chapter one
     A helping hand
"Today, was Kuroo Tetsurõ's funeral.
Where he would be barried."
I had been having weird thoughts about this.. My mental health had been going down recently. Kuroo had always been my insperation to get up in the morning and take a shower, brush my teeth, and eat 3 meals a day. But now he wasn't here And I no longer had any insperation to keep on walking forward in life, but now my insperation had vanished. No longer to be found. I sighed as I packed my bag. Surprisingly I was meeting up with my best friend Shoyo. Why was this suprising?

Well, Shoyo had been so busy with MSBY Black Jackals we haven't been able to hang out since high school. And now we're meeting up face to face having conversations like we used to. How the heck am I supposed to tell him about kuroo? Without crying and looking like a mess..? I haven't seen Shoyo in so long and if I end up crying in front of him I'll look like a big fat baby. Once again, Shoyo had never seen me cry and I want it to stay like that. Should I just not tell him about kuroo? But, that's would be lying kenma.... I thought to myself not knowing what to tell Shoyo if he asked about kuroo.. But, it was time for me to go. I finished packing a bag of things I needed, water, sweater, phone, laptop, and my switch....

FLASH BACK:
"KUROO, KUROO!" I ran up to Kuroo excited for my birthday today. "KENMA! COME LOOK AT TBE PRESENT I GOT YOU" He handed me a small box. As I opened the box I nearly dropped it.. I out down the box lightly and signed that I wanted a hug from my tall best friend. Kuroo.

OUT OF FLASHBACK.

The switch. He gave me was packed.
I visited Shoyo today. but, it didn't last long because he had to go fill in for bokuto today since he wasn't feeling well for today's practice. Today I actually thought I was going to be able to have a lasting, meaningful moment with him but today just wasn't my day. But at the same time I'm feeling glad it didn't go that deep because I don't think I would ever be able to share my thoughts after seeing my lover die in front of me

"KUROO! KUROO!"

To have to take my wedding ring off due to him being DEAD.

"I REFUSE!"

Heh, they had to force it off me. But they allowed me to keep the ring..

"NO! NO STOP IT PLEASE LET ME GO IN!"
"Sir, you're not allowed inside a room during surgery.."
"THAT'S MY HUSBAND **** ****"
"SIR YOU HAV-* ** ***************"

Lot's of blurry memories still flood ny head, the sad feeling of agany and despair was everything that I felt and it was unbearable.

"I'm sorry for your lost.."
"NO, NO YOU'RE LYING TO M-****** ST** IT STOP LY*****"
"SIR YOU NEED TO CALM DOWN"
"CALM DOWN ME CALM DOWN WHAT's wring with *** YOU'RE TELLING ME TO CA-** D*OWN?! NY HUSBANDS D***!"
"Sir we under***** just calm d*wn"
"No!"
"SECURITY!"

I don't know what happened back there but sooner I got kicked out the hospital for a whole day and they requested me to grouo therapy lessons or private ones even. But I refused I still have those papers they handed me maybe I'll take a look.

I dialed the number they answered almost immediately

"Hi.."
"Hello!"

To be continued