𝐍𝐨 𝐇𝐨𝐦𝐨 - ᴍᴏʀᴇ ᴀʀᴛ (7)

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Sorry for not being active yet at the same time I dont think that matters because what I do is nothing but cry :)

Although I was active on Instagram so that's nice.

So, another thing was to take a break.

Shit went on and no, I wont get therapy/help. Because I'm poor and I hate everything in general.

Again, I dont admit I have an eating disorder, I dont admit I have a problem! For me this is pretty normal.

I did relapsed because sad stuff and edgy NUMBNESS I have. Like, seriously, tf is my body doing.

I've also been feeling incredibly down because MORE sad stuff and wanting to kms when I'm 18 or 20. Idk, I dont care :)

Luckily I was able to tell a close friend and he was happy to support me. He listened and cared for me, he was pretty much the only person who wouldn't judge me. Other than the rest of my friends— (not my guy friends) but some people.

I'm actually a little happy to tell and show him my injuries when I asked him if he was okay with me showing it to him.

He said yes and that he wouldn't feel triggered. I had to ask him a few times just in case.

He was someone who I actually trust because the rest of my friends would react differently—a reaction that I dont even like. But I do respect why.

While with my eating, I'll try to ignore losing weight and maybe gain some muscle. Another friend inspired me to go to the gym and it was tad great. I wanna get abs

Look, I dont know if I'll recover, I dont know if this will end.

Because even if I do promise that I wont be injuring myself, I'll still do it. So who knows.

I got scabs now, last time I did it was on Friday, last week.

Might delete this because this is just a bit of a tad dummy vent.

Dont comment, dont message me, dont do anything. I will either ignore you or delete it :)

I dont want anyone to do anything with this, so just move on. I typed this because I can do whatever I want with this book.

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ANYWAYS

Have this vid because Baki the Grappler is amazing and you cant tell me otherwise.