𝐵𝑜𝑡𝑡𝑜𝑚 𝐻𝑜𝑠𝑒𝑜𝑘 𝑂𝑛𝑒𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑡𝑠

December✅

My heart is as cold as December
All those times I remember
You made me feel pretty
Hid me from the ugly
I wish I was him and you were with me
But I guess It'll never be
They are all just fantasies
Lying down by the river
I wish I didn't remember
Our first date at the theater
Wish we didn't swap sweaters
In this cold month December

Running away from home around 12 in the morning
Snow in our faces I remember it was storming
Cold as it is my heart was so warm
It beated so fast to the beat of a drum
But now you are with him and no one is with me
I hate you so much because you set my heart free
It belonged to you and it'll always be
But you don't want me anymore guess I should just leave
Off the face of this earth to make my heart heal
One kiss to the lips will break my loves seal

I saw you yesterday at our favorite spot
It hurt me to see you cause I loved it a lot
I loved it more when I was with you
Now it hurts to breathe because I am not with you
This cold month December it makes my heart tremor
I hate myself more cause I allowed you to break me
Kim Namjoon I hate you this pain It will consume me
I wake up each morning tears streaming down my face
Because I was last in your stupid love race

But this cold December , not as bad as it seems
My skins started glowing my personality beemed
I got back to dancing and continue to do better
I guess now that I kinda like December

Backstory: Hoseok and Namjoon were together till their senior year when Namjoon broke up with him for Jin the transfer student. Hoseok began to become severely depressed and had anxiety issues all throughout his senior year. He lost all his friends, dropped out of dance, and shut himself out from the world. It took him years to recover.
With therapy and help from new healthy friends Hoseok got his glow back. He was ready for whatever was ahead for him and a new love life. He went back to college and got his degree in physical science and became a dancer teacher. He was complete even without namjoon. He and Namjoon talked and Namjoon wanted him back. Hoseok being the new person he is, he specifically said
"I'm a bad bitch I don't need you"
"Hoseok you used to be so sweet and ....
"And what ?vulnerable, doing whatever you please because I was scared to defend myself"
"Hoseok no that's not what I meant necessarily"
"Namjoon. With all due disrespect
Go. Fuck. Yourself."
And with that Hoseok walked away with a smile on his face

The end.

Hey guys so I love to read poems in the winter and fall season so I'll be making many of these but if you guys don't like them then just lmk so I can post different content.💕