Loved You First

Now I've Got A Confession

Isabella's POV

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The next morning I woke up to the bright sunlight from outside. I tried to sit up from my bed but something pulled me back down. Or someone? "Good morning Issa." I heard Zayn's morning voice and I immediately did a double take. Looking around, we were on the living room couch and still in our clothes from yesterday. While we were watching movies, I must've fallen asleep here!!!!! "Hey Zaynster." I said, yawning and smiling, standing up to stretch. "So, you want some breakfast?" He asked standing up and smiling that small smile I've grown so used to. "Zayn, you know that I cook WAY better than you!" I smiled and flipped my hair, skipping into the kitchen. "Hey, that was offensive!!" Zayn yelled, grabbing me by my waist and throwing me over his shoulder. "ZAYN MALIK PUT ME DOWN!!!! Or else, I'll tell the lads how your name is REALLY spelled!!!" I screamed and he immediately put me down and looked into my eyes. "Don't ever do that. Ok?" He smirked and ran upstairs and into my room, locking the door. By the time I got there, I heard rummaging and clothes being thrown. "ZAYN DO NOT DESTROY MY ROOM!!!!" I screamed through the door and pounded on it. "Sorry love, I'm kind of busy." He said casually, like I didn't care that he was in my room. I stomped back downstairs and began to form my beautiful plan of revenge. Starting with his phone.

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Zayn's POV

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I sighed, knowing she had left. I started to search through her nightstand and desk, looking for what I always read when I needed to know what was up with Issa. Her diary. I knew that yesterday it wasn't just the break up between her and that jerk, Jacob. I knew that for some reason she wasn't that sad about it. I reached into the last drawer in her desk and I found it. A black and red bound notebook the size of maybe a phone. I opened it to the day we got here and started to look for her, 2 days before we found her.

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1-5-13

Dear Diary,

Today was an ordinary day, just work with Jasmine and her clique. They are some of the most IRRITATING girls on bloody Earth!!! Anyways, I saw a really interesting person today. I was on my way home from work and I was at the store, picking up some groceries. I bumped into this boy with brown/blonde hair and beautiful blue eyes and I swear I knew him from somewhere. He just nodded politely and hurried away. Weird. Ok so, my relationship with Jacob is going ok, it's just that I miss Zayn. A LOT. He is like another part of me but, I know he doesn't care for me anymore. He never comes to visit and when he did once, I had already moved from my parents house. He wouldn't want to see me anyways, probably just bring up some bad memories. I could never tell him how I feel anyway. I would just get hate and stuff from his "fans" and from him too. I don't know what to do with my life.

-Isabella**

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Wow, I never knew she felt this way. Well, about me that is. HOW COULD NIALL HAVE MET HER AND NOT HAVE TOLD ME?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? Talk about furious...also, this means that he didn't want to tell me. Maybe because I had never really described her.....he didn't really think it mattered. Oh well. Next entry.

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1-6-13

Dear Diary,

Once again, ordinary day. It was Sunday and I was off work, went to Mr. and Mrs. Malik's house. Said hey. Ms. Malik teased me about Zayn. I blushed like a tomato. Mr. Malik ships us together. Ms. Malik laughs and says he sounds like a Directioner. I laugh and die on the inside, knowing Zayn and I could never be together. The regular whenever I went over. I know, it sounds bad but they're like my real parents. My ACTUAL parents abused me and don't give a care whether or not I live until age 30, so the Maliks are all I've got. Well that's all for now.