Mommy's Big Baby Boy

The many chapters of our life

The progression was very slow, and now that I think back about it, it should have been more obvious what was happening over the years. My boyfriend and now my husband of over 20yrs told me very early in our relationship about his desires and obsession over being a baby and wearing and wetting diapers. Because I loved him and wanted to have our own babies with him it was easy to be able to ignore because there seemed no harm in it and he was so turned on by babying and nursing and wetting his big baby diapers that I guess I denied the intensity of what was actually happening over the years during our marriage.
  Due to his dedication to take care of his family, and adaptation to more and more responsibilities over the years, he provided a reasonable income and built a house in the country for us and was actually a really great father to our two girls.
  However due to his un-traditional views of life and ultimately childlike behavior, eventually he had to adapt to being a father and provider more than be totally Mama's Big Baby which was his dream. Being a creative person it had always been a challenge for him to hold things all together and keep up with the demands of modern living and parenthood and responsibilities of maintaining a place in the country I became dependent on him and he on me and we managed to maintain a lifestyle that was suitable for the both of us. Babying and diapering was an activity that had the benefit of serving our sexual needs and our family obligations, a balance was maintained and the children were unaware of our bedroom activities and grew up unaware of our momma/baby relationship. This was all good and healthy. However as time went on "baby's needs" became more and more neglected and family demands became more and more demanding.
  The children's needs were always treated with a distinct priority and that was expected and accepted by the both of us and was healthy and normal, but I think it wore on him as the years went by.
  However as time went on and my husband slowed down he began to have some health issues, and his income earning capabilities were diminished, we became aware of some of the disadvantages of our age differences. He would be 70 years old by the time our youngest graduated from HS. I would most likely have to continue working after that and I don't have a problem with that. However that means no kids at home and I think he really, really hopes to have more of a chance to be Mama's Big baby more and more often.
  I am kind of afraid of that as I know how much it means to him and it is daunting thinking of having him turn into a dependent Big Baby. But I know that is what he wants and I want him to be happy. Already a few years out from that, I sense a growing need for me to take care of him and he has worked very hard to be a good father to our kids and he deserves it.
  He wants to be more or less diaper dependent for his wetting and he wants me to take more control over his diapering and breastfeeding needs. It is an unusual situation and I'm not sure that I can fullfill his needs realistically.
  Over the years his diapering desires
have never diminished and is most likely due to the impractibility of living the lifestyle he has always craved with children at home. I think he can accept that but somehow I am going to have to step up my mommying. He has never been over demanding and his desire for diapers and babying are playing into his self esteem issues.
  He has always been healthy except back pain and shoulder issues which are now becoming more critical and soon he is going to have a genuine need for more care and attention. I admit that I have never fully understood his need for wetting diapers but I have tried in my way to give him support all through our marriage nonetheless. And we both enjoy the comfort of breastfeeding and the stimulation that it brings both of us. Fortunately we both enjoy our time spent as he suckles and nurses in his diapers and plastic pants as he wets for mommy.
  After all these years it has become an expected and comforting part of our relationship. Unfortunately not something that either of us can or cares to share with anyone outside our personal relationship, which is too bad. He has had online friends over the years but I have never participated in that except perhaps in the very beginning.
  Lately he has tried to deny his diaper desires and show me how much he loves me without that stimulation but I encourage him to wear them because I know how much he needs them and after all these years I accept him diapered or not. Frankly he gets a lot more excited and hard with his diapers on and especially when he wets them for "mommy" so I really don't mind. In fact I am convinced that he really is a big baby in spite of his being an adult as well and that is a turn on for me. I like him in his diapers and he looks cute, even in his pink lacy plastic panties with big ducky diaper pins holding up his saggy diapers. He is genuine and we sometimes have issues but I want him to enjoy his life and our times together. He gets genuinely hungry for Mama's boobies and there is no faking that! When he suckles it really does make me feel wanted and needed and turned on by his passion and he mine.
  As un-traditional as it may seem, we have made it work but we have had to hide it from the world, it's none of their business anyway. My big baby is facing some health issues lately and we are going to get thru it together. He may even have to wear diapers sometimes which I'm sure he will somehow enjoy. I am sure he doesn't want to be fully diaper dependent, but my baby sure loves to wet for mommy and cum in his wetties for me. If anything he seems to be diaper dependent for his cummies although sometimes he surprises me!
  I am trying to not have any expectations about the future though, we will see, my big diaper baby is not going anywhere though and "mommy" will always be there for him. It is an incredibly close feeling, the Mama/Baby relationship, even though my baby is an adult, there is no doubt that he is completely Mama's diaper wetting baby boy too.