The moon is my savior.🖤🌕

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She closes her eyes hoping that her share of her fantasy dreams will be kinder to her than her reality, to be visited by her favorite fictional character, to enjoy a warm hug even if it is not real, she closes and leaves her mind for what he will give her.
Sitting on the balconies of one of the highest buildings, looking for the first time at the beauty of the moon and not her favorite star, she feels that she needs something bigger that takes her sadness to it, she no longer feels that this little star can bear what is inside her, she has a crying lump that doesn't have the ability to open the way to it, she will not be able to stop her way if she goes out, it is like the waves of the seas, no good will happen if you give your face to her and try to stand against her, you must turn your back and surrender to her slaps and wounds until she is completely exhausted, you will think that she has stopped, but the truth is that you are the one who was violated and was unable to suffer more.

She feels a sudden warmth in all the hairs of her body, as if blood has finally found a shelter for her.

He sits next to her and tells her in a gentle tone of anger, looking at the moon:

- Oh really? Didn't you find only the highest buildings to see the beauty of the moon? The weather was as cold as ice you could see in your home.

= Who are you? Why are you here?

- Well, looks like I'm your favorite fictional character *says with an arrogant look*

= Why would you be my favorite character? I don't even know you!

- Tell your suspicious mind.

= Even my brain doesn't want me to have a perfect fantasy moment what the hell!
, What now? Someone I don't even know pretends to be my favorite character!

- hey I'm not pretending ... you brought me here in this icy weather of yours, tell me what you want so you can wake up and I can go burn some firewood and warm.

= I don't want anything, I just want to relax and look at the moon so I can wake up and pretend I'm fine tomorrow.

- At least you don't need to pretend here, with me.

= I really don't know, yes I'm not feeling well but why? I've been alone all my life, why am I still sad about this feeling and I'm not used to it?

- I think that people still come to you and make you feel that you are not alone for a while and then they go again and the feeling you thought is finally over coming again.

= It is really bad and very painful, like feeling that you are alone in this whole world, you wake up one day after another so that the world tells you that you are here alone and there is nothing you can do about this matter, and one day you wake up to find your family and friends that your old self used to love and love their presence in your world, Then you find yourself alone the other day because your current self no longer accepts the idea of ​​someone being there and getting attached to them and then leaving you again, it's a really bad feeling.

- Does looking to the moon remove this miserable feeling from you?

= It does not remove it, sometimes it makes me remember my smallest sadness for this huge universe, and that the purpose of these years in which I will remain on this earth is not comfort, happiness, a feeling of safety and having a company, but rather misery and exhaustion to finally have the feelings I need at the end.

- And the other time?

= He takes my hand a little away from all these sad thoughts, and makes me fantasize about everything I couldn't have, just for a while.

- and what things that you couldn't have?

= I don't know, is it something I can explain to you?
My mother's warm hug that I haven't had since my thirteen years of age, my laughter with my grandmother giving me money behind my mother, my playing with my neighbors under the house and laughing without turning to make sure no one sees me or hears my loud laughter, riding a bike with my brother and walking in the middle of the street behind the cars and we promised each other not to tell mom and dad, not to worry about talking too much in front of someone, my friends, I think I miss my friends.
You know, I really miss myself pretty much.

= But I can't force someone to need me, or miss me, or even love me, and what will I do if they don't want me around, just go, I often feel like I'm falling into the deepest
Ocean and only their love will save me from it, but I've been in the ocean forever.

- Didn't you say that we were created for this? to these miserable feelings?

= Sometimes I want to be a bad person and complain about going through all these feelings alone, doesn't a person deserve to find someone by his side? Didn't I deserve this! 

- And then what? They go, you feel lonely and sleep, wishing that your dream would be kinder to you than them?

= How do you really understand all this.

- Whoever comes, tells me many.

= Why do you think you are in my dream?

- I think I'm your favorite cha..

= Don't you dare tell me you're my favorite character

- I can make you fall off this building, you know that? Just let you know.

= Well I've talked a lot, it's your turn now.

- m my turn?

= What? Didn't someone ask you before or what!

- no they didn't.

= Good, I'll be the first then.

- should I tell you about her?

= Tell me about her.

- She was sitting on a shore full of stones, the water rolling her fingers back and come, she was smiling and very happy.

= I thought that who comes to you is only sad and complain to you.

- actually she was, but instead of complaining, she enjoyed her imaginary dream and her smile on her face did not leave her, I was afraid to go, but my feet didn't care about this and went to her

= then?

- I told her that she could talk about what hurts her, She won't remember this dream when she wakes up but this will really comfort her.
She refused and told me that she would rather be the first person who didn't come to complain but to enjoy, and maybe she would complain in her last dream on her last day so that life wouldn't be able to win.

- Has this day come?

- ...

= Sorry, the question was automatically exited.

- this whether I feel freezyyy!

= Probably because I used to listen to the sounds of rain and snow before going to sleep.

- Are you feeling a little better?

= Very much, I think when I wake up I will feel good in my heart, but did this dream last a little * she says laughing *

- *a look of sadness*

= I won't wake up, am I?

- You will never feel lonely again.

= Who was this girl?

- ....

= Looks like I did as I promised you.

- you'll be fine.

= I know, I know.

- I hope that the misery of your years here is reflected happiness and comfort there, I really wish this for you, you deserve it.

= am I really deserve it?

- You know this from your deep.

= Thank you for coming, really.

*Finally falling the tear that had remained on her eyelids for this moment, she found shelter on the side of her face on her pillow, leaving her body for endless rest*