BEWILDERED

chapter five

Time : 8:47 | Saturday

I received a text on my insta from @okkryan :
"wanna come over ?"

I sighed annoyed but unrealistically knowing as figured he would text me.
My body erratic and having the urge to screech but the only thing i did was, slowly but surely move my finger to type
"ok"

I shot up straight from my bed and brushed my teeth, splashing water onto to my skin, i washed my face with warm water.
I didn't know what to expect all of this was so sudden but expected.
I quickly headed shortly back to my room.
I threw on a clean white shirt that outlined my body frame along with black sweatpants I tried to go for something that didn't scream "slut" but more calm and relaxed but still slightly slutty.
The thought of catching Ryan's attention while spraying soft perfume gained smoothly inside my head, the thought of him being attached to my scent turned me on secretly.
I craved his attention, it's the only validation i wanted.
My thoughts fully took a toll on me.
Sooner i grabbed my socks and shoes to put them on fast, and went to look in my mirror to check how I look. "okay".
I headed to my kitchen and grabbed my water just because i had this gut feeling that i might need it.
As I headed to my door, I shouted to my mom, she didn't care much about me going small distant places but, she for sure didn't know about me and ryan she thinks we're just "friends" but i don't even know what we would call each other, but not friends that's for sure.
"I'm going to ryan's house"

"don't come back late"

i headed down the stairs shodden up by the fact that he invited me over.
I finally reached the 3rd floor and pulled out my phone.
I texted ryan.
A tense feeling of adrenaline rushed through me.

"open pls"

he quickly replied.

"ok"

A few seconds his door unlocked filling the silent halls with a clicking loud echo as a tall door opened creaking almost revealing a tall figure.
A brown shirt that looked almost washed out but also brand new at the same time, grey sweats that stood a little above his ankles revealing his socks and slippers.

He had a enlightened face when he saw me.
He smelled so good, that cologne had me wrapped up on the thought of him. It's something that's locked in my memory, did he shower before this? It couldn't ever be something i could get out of my head.
This might be too much to say out loud but it almost drove me crazy so much that i had to pull myself together it's like he had me under some hypnosis.

"why are you just standing there .. come in"

I walked softly as the floor creaked from the touch of my feet.
The smell of food surrounded my nose softly,  it smelled great like always he and his family were very put together unlike mine.
He locked the door behind him and swiftly passed in front of me to lead me to his room.
Eventually we both walked in one after another as he held the door to let me in.
His room was neat surprisingly, from what I've seen everytime it was always a little messy..

"you cleaned up?"

"yeah .. i always do, only on saturday's"

"oh .."

"okay come I have to show you something"

I walked to his bed slowly and sat down pushing my legs together to stop the horny feeling that ran through my lower body, i wanted to say something but i was way too shy and we've never did anything.
He pulls out his phone revealing his password .. 061***.
I couldn't see the rest but that's odd seems familiar next thing he goes to safari to pull up a censored site.
At first i trying to come to terms with what he was doing but then when i realized i spoke without thinking twice.