My inside world

Rainy day to summers day

Reality is based off life, you can make your life, or you can break it. The weather doesn't make it better? It's poring down with it wet,Crystal clear rain. Some people like the rain. I do not, I'd rather be playing in the fluffy snow or play in the summer!. Everyday I wake with emotions that are hard to express or explain, so  I don't understand how to express feelings without people thinking I don't like them or I have a bad attitude.People's opinion is all I hear." I don't like ***" "don't do ****" "you should ****" I'm sick of it. So to escape the horrible overwhelming reality of life! I go to my happy place!

There's no Crystal clear rain but a beautiful golden sun glistening above me everyday as long as a soft fluffy snow bellow me,theres no options that can bring me down or make me uncomfortable, and I understand my emotion and feelings.

The people. The people is my problem, there are kinds of people? People who bully others,people who assault, people who kill or abuse?. There is a kind which are sweet and calming, and there is people who are loud and bubbly! I never liked people? Because I was different.. I wasn't a bully? I wasn't calm?? And I wasn't bubbly.but to fit in I had to chooses personality that wasn't me, but at least I had some friends? For example! Sam, he was a kind hearted person with a personality that screamed caring! We bonded over many movies/series and we're often were seen as brothers, a example is my 2 friends from my primary. Kelsey as Evie, they have been my friends for a while so we've bonded over a lot of stuff. There very intelligent and comfortable to be around.

I'm my world! I was myself! I got to be myself! I was happy I was free, and I didn't feel judgement against being myself, my friends were there to! My friends is what I needed cause I could act or be who I was in front of them.

The schools were the worst. Getting judged for everything. Bullying. Loosing friends. Fights.
That screams anxiety and panic attack. I hated school. With my autism no one would help me. So I struggle a lot,and I would be constantly bullied for the way I act.

But! Evie helps me understand and learn more, they also helped me improve my art skills!
In my world! Everything makes sense! I feel myself abs I don't feel ashamed to be myself.