Somewhere in Barcelona

Prologue

Love and Support.

That's what I need, but I'm sorely lacking. I grew up not feeling love from my family, a family that never supported me in what I wanted to do. Growing up lacking support and not feeling love from family is very hard.  They provide for my needs, but it's still not enough. This is not what I want. This is not how I want to experience and feel.

I finally woke up from a good and comfortable sleep. As I opened my eyes I felt excited for this day.I immediately stood up from my bed and opened the window of the small unit where I was staying. I may be living in a smaller unit now than my father's huge mansion I came from. But at least, I can call it home. That's it, you can't feel home with incomplete family. This is where I felt the true happiness  I had wanted to experience for a long time.

When I opened the curtain in front of my bed, I immediately saw the beautiful city of Spain. I was greeted by fresh air and bright green colors from the towering trees around when I stepped out onto the balcony of my small unit.

It's a great time to walk at the charming streets of Barcelona to start the day.  I washed my face and did my skincare routine. I wore my black long sleeve crop top and beige leggings and paired it with my color black running shoes. I also brought my cute belt bag that only fits my phone and wallet.

When I left my place I decided to eat breakfast before I went for a walk. It is not hard to find a place to eat because there are many coffee shops here in Barcelona. When I finally  found a place to eat, I sat down and immediately ordered. I ordered cappuccino and churros because churros usually eaten in the morning as a breakfast in Spain.

While I was peacefully waiting for my order at a coffee shop here in Barcelona, I remember all the hardships I experienced when I was still in the Philippines. Yeah my dad gave me everything I needed and wanted, I am privilege like others, I eat good food everyday, I live in a big and comfortable mansion and went to a good school. But for me, It's till not enough.

" Hola! este este es tu pedidio, y que tengas un buendia. "

[ Hi! this is your order  enjoy and have a nice day. ]

"Gracias, que tengas un buen dia tambien!"  I answered back after the waiter gave my order.
[ thank you,  have a nice day too. ]

As  I sip my coffee, I realized na ang layo ko na pala. Ang layo ko na pala sa dati kong buhay. Who would have thought that I am here now, and continue to work for my dreams.  I think the happiest thing that happened to me was to live the life I dreamed of when I was a kid.  I am proud and happy to live the life I dreamed of.  It was hard at first because I almost cut my finger several times while trying to cut what I would need for cooking, I also got oil spilled several times while cooking. I also had trouble lifting furniture when I was fixing my unit. I also did things that a father should do when I first moved here. I fixed the lighting and other electricity. I also built the furniture that I needed. I really thanked those   online videos that guided me to do all those things. I chose to do it all by myself because the fee was expensive and I was only saving my savings that I had accumulated before I left the Philippines.

But despite that hardship, I would still choose this rather than being with people who prevent me from reaching my dream. And I wasn't wrong, I got the satisfaction I wanted, I am now happy with where I am right now and  I am pursuing the course that I really love. Even though sometimes I'm struggling with my bills, I will still choose this life of mine again and again. It's not as luxurious as the life I lived, but I'm truly happy here.

I was so deep in thought that I didn't realize that there was only one churros left on my plate. I dipped it in hot choco on the side and ate it. I just rested for a while and then walked