1D Imagines

Niall - The break down

"Niall just listen to me, you never listen to me all I want is a little respect" You yelled at him making him roll his eyes. Lately you and Niall have been distant and when you guys do talk it's just yelling and fighting. You were surprised that you guys haven't got in a fist fight yet.

"I always let you talk about how you feel. You're starting to get on my nerves." He retorted. It was your turn to roll my eyes. You had nothing else to say to him you turned around to walk upstairs before you heard him muttered.

"I wish I never met her. I can understand why no one likes her. She make me want to die! I hate her so much." He thought you didn't hear what he said. You continued walking upstairs. When you got to your guys room you slammed the door shut going into the bathroom slamming that door shut to locking it.

The only guy you loved just said he didn't even want you anymore, you let the tears stream down your face. If the one person you trusted with your life doesn't want you anymore than what the point of living? Exactly there's no point.

"You're worthless. Just do everyone a favor" You whispered to yourself. You turned on the shower to trick niall into believing you were fine. But you weren't. You took the pills from the cabinet. Slowly opening the bottle you poured a little into your hand. You swallowed that little bit. You poured more and more swallowing them until the bottle was empty. You slid down the wall holding your stomach. The pain was intense; you threw up a couple of times. You felt everything slowing down; you closed your eyes letting the darkness consume you.

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Niall's POV.

I regretted what I said the moment I said it. I knew she heard me but I wanted to get back at her. It was wrong. I slammed my hand on the table and brought it back up to rub my hands in my hair. I heard the door slam shut stating she was mad at me. I wanted to go apologize to her but I wanted to give her some time alone.

I walked up the stairs into our room hearing the shower running, I would just have to simply wait until she done. I waited and waited until I couldn't wait anymore. She was in there for a long time; too long. I walked over to the door knocking on it.

"(Y/N) are you okay" I asked. She didn't reply I didn't even hear a sound. "(Y/N) are you okay. I'm sorry for what I said, I didn't mean it" I said a little louder. Still nothing, I sighed and sat on the bed waiting for her to come out and talk to me.

After 10 more minutes that was it I was going in there whether she liked it or not. I got a bobby pin from her side of the dresser and tried to unlock the bathroom door. When I opened the door all I could do was cry.

"No no no" I said while taking my phone out of my pocket dialing 911. "I need an ambulance... My girlfriend just committed suicide. You have to save her" I cried into the phone. I gave them my address and went back over to (Y/N). I dragged her into the now cold shower running. I tapped on her face to try to make sure if she was alive, she didn't react.

"(Y/N) Wake up please I need you in my life" I yelled. It happened all so fast they came in and moved me out the way so they could get to (Y/N). They tried to save her, they tried to but it wasn't enough. Just by how they looked over to me I could tell she was gone. I dropped to my knees letting the sobs fill the air. It was my entire fault she was gone all my fault. (The paramedics left with her body in a bag.)

The tears stopped all what was left was this numb feeling. Knowing she's not here hurt me, knowing I'm what caused this killed me. I rolled over onto the bed running my hands through the sheets of where she used to lay.

"I'm so sorry I cause you so much pain" I whimpered out.

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"I remember when (Y/N) was little she would always have a smile on her face, but that slowly faded when she grew up. She would always lock herself in the room. But when you came in Niall she was that little girl again she would always have that smile on her face and I thank you for that" her mom finished whipping away the tears and going back to her spot.

"It is now time for the burial" The pastor said. Everyone watched as her casket was lowered into the ground. After she was all the way in the ground they started putting the dirt on her.

"Stop" I screamed while the tears ran down my face. "She's not dead" I cried while trying to un-shovel all the dirt that was put on her. "She's not dead" I repeated myself. I felt hands pulling me away from her I needed to save her.

"Niall stop, she's gone" Liam told me.

"I need to save her Liam you don't understand I need her" I yelled at him. He wrapped me in hug and I let it all out. "I need to save her. It's my entire fault" I cried. Liam patted my back until I calmed down. I watched as they continued burying her; it was painful.

After it was done some people stayed behind to talk to her. I waited till everyone was gone. I sat down in front of her grave I played with the grass while sniffling my nose.

"This is really it?" I asked taking in a big breath. "I never meant to hurt you, you know. I regret everything I said, I wish you were here with me. I never knew I caused so much happiness in you life, but as I caused it pain came along with it. I'm so sorry" I cried.