Nine to five, three to eleven

Part 1

Something new:

After leaving the law firm of Richardson and Richardson at five pm sharp, I walked to the parking garage and got into my car, I didn't want to go to my apartment so I drove to Forsyth park and sat on a bench and just watched people. I watched men, women and children  playing.

 I wonder what kinda father I would've made if the baby hadn't died, after that Julia didn't want to be married we only got married because she was pregnant, and I let my brother Parker talk me into doing what he says is the right thing the baby has our blood. And the Dane's always take care of our own.

I only slept with Julia to cover up who I really am, a gay man at the time I never even told Parker about my sexuality, but I no longer hide my sexuality I came out to Parker after the baby died we live in the same city but he no longer talks to me saying a Dane man can't be gay.

Parker raised me when our mother died when I was sixteen and he was only twenty one, he made sure I finished school he was my best friend, and now we're like strangers. I miss my brother but I have to be who I am, I do feel bad for marrying Julia knowing I'm gay, I came out to her and she got so upset and went into labor and she lost the baby. I thought I was doing the right thing, but it turned out to be the wrong thing for all of us.

After thinking about my passed I got off the bench and walked to my car, I saw this guy walk by wearing some short shorts with his ass cheeks showing, he smiled at me as I got into my car, I haven't dated sense I divorced Julia not even a sex date. I have my sex toys to relieve myself, once that's done  I go on with my life. Do I want someone special in my life the answer is yes who doesn't, even though I know I'm gay I've never really been with the same sex before, and the only sex I ever had is with Julia we only did it once.

I headed home when I got there I got out of my fitted suit and walked around with my underwear, I turned on some music and poured me a glass of wine I walked into the kitchen wondering what I'm going to eat tonight, I only shop for the day there wasn't much in the fridge but milk , eggs butter and orange juice. I closed the fridge door and walked back into the living room I decided to call Parker maybe he'll talk to me, he did text me last week and said happy birthday to me maybe he's ready to talk.

I made the call and it went straight to voicemail, I left a message saying thanks for texting me on my bday, and I miss my big brother. I did say I am the same brother that he's always known I just like the same sex, I told him to call me when he gets my message I need my brother in my life again. I hung up damn I want my brother in my life again, I finished my wine and checked my mail nothing but junk mail all of my bills are paid.

I walked into my bedroom and looked at myself in the mirror I have a nice body, but I'm the only one who sees it, I decided to put something on its been cool for the last few evenings sweat pants weather. I got a pair and a tee-shirt and my Jordan's, and got dressed I got my wallet, cellphone and keys and headed out of the door thinking what I'm going to eat today. Its Friday I could've just order out but I enjoy getting out and people watching.

I drove to the Wal-Mart on the other side of town my area is boring the same ole people being uppity, it didn't take me long to get there and I got a cart and started my shopping, it usually takes me two hours to walk the aisles and get my things. I noticed a new face a cute face too I ended up following him around the store, he's  kinda slender but has a nice body.

I walked up to him and asked him where's the caviar he looked at me and said the what, I repeated myself knowing damn well they don't carry that here, I just wanted to hear his voice and look at his name tag.

He told me to hold on and he walked away and talked to another worker, he came back and said sorry they don't carry fish eggs I thanked him and walked away. His name is Lesley his name didn't fit the way he looks not that I know him he just didn't look like a Lesley as he walked away I got a good look at his ass.

I got the rest of my things and checked out and headed home, I made steak and eggs and watched T.V later I took a shower and got my sex toy and slid it up my tight ass and beat my dick as the water ran down my body thinking about Lesley.

If only he were here inside of me, I laughed thinking what if he's not even gay, and I'm fantasizing about him being inside of me and if he is gay he could be a bottom, I'm not sure what my sexual position is I just know I like men.

After I busted my nut I got cleaned up and went to bed holding my pillow some day I'll have someone to hold.

The following week I did my normal routine and that's go home and change and head to the store, so I could see Lesley I would pretend that I didn't see him if he came down the same aisle I was in but I would look up after he passed me to get a look at his ass. I wonder what he does on his day off, or if he has someone special in his life male or female.

By coming to the store at the same time I knew what shift he worked, and that's three to eleven a few times I even came back when he got off work to see if someone picked him up. He drove to work and a few times he caught the bus. I still didn't get any answers to my questions about if there's someone special in his life.

Once I even thought about following him home to see where he lives, but that's a bit to much even for me, maybe one day I'll just speak to him about more than what's in the store until than I'll just keep doing what I'm doing.