Parth and Krishna

A letter of feelings

Arjuna pov -

Madhav,

I don't know why I am writing this when I know that I can always tell in you in person what I feel . Words doesn't need to transpire even in person to you, you always understand what's going on in my mind or what my heart wants. How did I get so lucky Madhav?

My life has been full of expeditions , wars and exiles. It was always what people wanted from Arjuna. What was expected from Arjuna. To bring glory, to sacrifice, to always listen but to never retaliate yet be a fierce warrior in the battlefield. Very few people asked what Arjuna wanted, what he was feeling. And you were the only one who understood my dilemmas, my heartbreaks, my emotions that I always failed to express.

You always understood my silence and why won't you? Afterall you are the silence as well the voices that prevail in this world. My emotions for you aren't something I can ever describe Madhusudhana. If I am the lightening , you are the cloud that created it.
If I am the raindrop you are the Mother Earth that absorbs it.
You are the light in my darkest of paths. One who never left me, who was always with me like a shadow.

In my lifetime I have gained countless names from various people.

Arjuna

Savyasachi

Jishnu

Gaandivdhari

Vijaya

Phalguna

Kiritin

Swetavahana

Vibhatsu

Gudakesha

Krishna.

Countless names. Countless praises. Yet I consider my identity to be Partha only. Pritha putra Partha. Madhav's Partha.
People may call me Savyasachi, people may call me Phalguna, people may call me Gudakesha. But at the end I am just parth, a normal human being who is friends with the Dwarkadhish, the one who slayed Kansa, the one who always sustain Dharma.

Mata always used to tell me your kridas that you used to do in vrindavan in my childhood . From your naughty adventures to your everlasting knowledge. From your bursting the makhan pots to your lifting of Goverdhan parvat. Your stories always attracted me . You were special to me even before we met . You were my calmness even before I met you.

The first time I saw you, I felt the divine aura that was surrounding you. You had that mischievious smile of yours as if you knew what was going to happen . And of course you knew. The past, present and the future starts with you and it ends with you only. The world is immersed in you and you are the world itself.

Everything starts with you and it ends in you only. You are the only truth. You are the attachment and you are the detachment. You looked at me, smiled at me and I felt a sense of achievement. I felt what happiness actually feels like. And it was same what I felt when I picked a bow for the first time or when I was successful in piercing the eye of the bird. I couldn't take my eyes off you. It was like I knew you yet I didn't. I yearned to knew who you actually were.

Madhav

You are the mind and I am your action.

You are the truth and I am the sage who tries to deliever it.

You are the twinkle of the eye and I am the smile caused by it.

You are the cloud and I am your raindrop.

You are the ocean and I am just the pearl residing in it.

You are the God and I am just a follower .

You are my Madhav and I am just your Parth.

I still remember the day when you told me that you and I are one. My friends are your friends and my enemies are your enemies. My heart bursted in happiness when your words hit my ears as well as my heart, mind and soul. How did I get so lucky?

You always praised me when you felt like it. You got angry with me when you felt I am not following my Dharma. You loved, you got angry, you praised and you always stood by me. Never left me. I am prone of people leaving my side partially and fully and not having them for myself. But you were always there. I always knew even if everyone leaves me you will always be there.
I still remember the day when you were ready to break your vow of not holding any weapons when you felt , I am not giving my hundred percent. I couldn't let you do it. This Arjuna is not worth it. I would rather die than to let people question you because of me.

Our casual strolling to the banks of Yamuna where we shared countless words. Words that were meant for you and me only. Words that even the winds passing by didn't knew. You kept telling me things at that time and I kept looking at you in pure wonder. A smile gracing on my lips when I felt what it actually feels like to listen to the person who held my heart and me in his palms.

I would mindlessly follow you everywhere Kanha, in this journey and in many journeys that exist even after this lifetime. I would always follow you.

This Arjuna is only for you
This Arjuna is only dedicated to you.

I still don't know what I share with you and probably will never know. It is deeper than an ocean and it is higher than sky. It's never ending Kanha. My words and what I am writing to you would never do justice what I feel for you. Those words that actually describe my emotions are not created and they will never be created.

I am your worshipper

I am your cousin

I am your action

I am your music

I am your smile

I am your best friend.

I am just

Madhav's parth. Nothing less, nothing more. This is the identity that I love and this is the identity I want to live .
I hope to meet you soon. Come soon. Your parth is waiting Madhav.

- Parth

This was my attempt . I know it's not very good. What I feel they both shared , my words will never do any justice to it. But even if I succeeded to bring a little amount of essence their relationship had , I would be glad.

I hope you all like my work . My lame attempt to describe a relationship that probably can't be described by anyone.

Thank you.
Love and blessings to you all 💕
Happy diwali.
May the festival of light brings a lot of happiness to each one of you.