The feeling of being alone haunts me everyday. This depression is taking over my mind. The addiction is taking over my life. I dont want help, I cant ask for help, yet Im scarming inside for it.
Im doing drugs to try to stop myself from cutting- moving from one addiction to an other, yet at night when Im alone the only thing I want to do is put an other cut to my skin.
I cant bother to ask my friends for help, they have helped me enough I dought they care to know things have gotten worse.
Hell I cant even trust anyone anymore. I've been lied to my whole life from my own protection but people are still lying. News Flash: Im not a child any more. So what if it hurts, the truth hurts. Id rather know the trust then and now then threw someone else, weeks later.
Just to think about it, what friends are even going to stay my friends in the end of it. Who wants to be friends with a crazy girl who cuts and starves herself and does drugs the odd time.
I feel so alone. I need help. but not from a professional, from someone who actually cares.
I hate being alone. I just want this all to be over. Ihate that I always want to cut-I try not to give in but its hard. Im covered in scars. And No one knows. No one sees. No one cares.
