Breaking The Rules For Her (Ashton Irwin Story)

Telling Luke

(This Chapter contains Self Harm Triggers)
        
           Ashton POV

       I walk into the house and see Luke sitting in the living room on his phone.I sit down next to him and smile. This is a good time to tell her about Cher.

       "Hey I met this girl today. She has a voice like an Angel. I am going on a date with her tonight."I tell him and he looks at me in shock.

       "No you are not going out with anyone.You know the rules Ashton. No Girlfriends!"
Luke says a bit loudly.

         Calum came in and looked at us. "Why are you yelling at Ashton for? He didn't do anything wrong."Calum says.

        Luke glares at Calum and stands up to be nose to nose to Calum. This isn't what I thought would happen.This is all my fault. I shake my hand and get up.I walk upstairs to the bathroom. Both Calum and Luke were both still glaring at each other to notice me leaving.

         I lock the door and look in the toilet lid (the one that holds all the water. Their is a blade. I just wanted a girlfriend I've been so lonely and the hate on twitter gets to me. I'm ugly!I need to drum better!I'll never get a girlfriend! Then when I finally can say yes I am going on a date I am told I can't by Luke. I start to cut. Blood goes down my wrist with each clean cut.

     I have 6 cuts in total. I clean up and get bandages on. Then I put my bracelets on to hide my cuts.Michael caught me once. I went to therapy because of it but Luke and Calum doesn't know about it. I have been clean for 6 months. But with what Luke said I  couldn't take it. I know Michael said he would tell them if I ever slip up so I have to hide this better.

      I flush the toilet and walk out.Then text Cher telling her I will pick her up for our date at 8:00pm. We will be going to the movies. I have booked the whole theater for The Fault in Our Stars.She was very excited. I am going to date her weather Luke likes it or not. I want to be happy.

      "Hey why'd you take so long in the bathroom Ashton."Michael asked me as I walk passed his room.Shit.

      " I was us...using the restroom."I say looking at my shoes. "Wh...why do you want to..to know?"

        "Just wondering so I know weather to wait to go in to take a shower or not. Why you stuttering? Are you lying?"He says and walks closer to me. I put my hands to my side and start walking away shaking my head. I get to my room fast and close the door and take a deep breath as I lay on my bed close my eyes putting my fingers through my hair that was close.

       The door suddenly opens and shuts. Me thinking it's Michael I start to talk.

      "Mic...Michael I swear I..I was just using the restroom. I'm not cu..cutting. I have been clean for 6 months why would I start a..again."I manage to say in a silent whisper.

      "Ashton! What are you talking about?"Calum says.

      I open my eyes to see it was Calum. His face is full of concern and shock.How am I going to fix this.Acting yes.Acting classes.

        "Um I ah."I manage to say three words that make me look guilty.

        Calum has always been here for me. And to see the hurt in his eyes. I put my hand over my wrist an squeeze. I wince a little but cough it off.All I want to do is be alone.

        Michael walks in and I let go of my wrist fast and cough. Calums.looks at him then me. He is so hurt. He walks up to me and gives me a hug. Tears fall down my.face because he knows now. But none of them.know I just relapsed. I here Calum crying too.

         After  we break apart Calum clears his throat and wipes his face.

        "Ashton why did you tell me? Does Luke know too? Why did you only tell him? I'm your best friend too.And wow you haven't done I yt? In 6 months that's amazing I am proud of you Ashton."Calum says.Then he brings up what happened with Luke.

      I hope Michael doesn't to and to together.

      "I hope what Luke said a bit ago didn't hurt you. He just doesn't want any of us to have girlfriend. I almost punched him back there. But then I saw you had left.Tell me what happened with the girl after you tell me what happened that made you stop hurting yourself."He said.
   
        Michael sat down hugged both of us and explain everything about how he found me passed out with blood everywhere. And therapy I am going to now. God I hope Luke doesn't walk in. I go to the walk in closest. Close the door and put a hoodie on. I take the bracelets off softly.Then walk out and sit next to them.

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Author's Note
I hope you enjoyed this chapter. Next chapter will be the date.

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