Thonny- true love waits

Ch3

Thom didn't know what to do. He felt like a shit person because all he could do is stare at poor Jonny. Jonny just looked so confused, like he couldn't believe what he had just seen. All Jonny could do is hide behind his hair and start chewing on his fingernails. he was too in shock to cry or say anything. Thom understood. He had been through that too. He felt like a shit person for keeping that door open for so long and making poor Jonny watch that scene play out.  He just kept staring at Jonny. all he could see were his eyes, his mouth is covered with his balled-up hand. Thom looked at Jonny's other hand. he was holding an unopened beer. Thom just reached down and grabbed the beer, putting it in between his arm and torso. With his free arm, he grabbed the hand Jonny was holding the beer with and walked Jonny all over the house, desperate to find an empty room. He jiggled doorknobs and knocked on what felt like a thousand doors before he found a bathroom at the end of a hallway. He turned on the light and pulled Jonny in there before closing the door and locking it. Jonny still had that blank expression on his face. Maybe it's not a good idea to let Jonny drink tonight. Maybe that would be too much for him. Jonny just kept standing there, staring at the wall, still not saying a word. Finally, Thom broke the silence.

"I'm sorry Jon Jon" Jonny shrugged. "You've got nothing to be sorry for, Thom." Thom just kept staring at Jonny, who was staring at a blank wall. Finally, the expression on Jonny's face changed. His lips started to curve downwards a little, and his eyes got foggy, but he was not about to embarrass himself in front of his older brother's friend. He just looked at the floor for a second, trying to suck back his tears. It wasn't working. Nobody had ever seen Jonny cry except for Colin. A single tear started to roll down his cheek. he tried to wipe it without being obvious but Thom saw. Jonny knew he saw. he just felt even more like crawling in a hole and dying. Jonny just walked past Thom and looked at the bathtub for a second. sitting in a bathtub seemed less awkward than standing. he stepped into the tub and sat on the floor of it, hugging his knees to his chest. he was burning up and he realized he still had his big puffy coat on. he didn't have the will to take it off right now. it was almost like it was protecting him. keeping him in a stuffy, hot ball of blankets.

People don't know it, and they don't see it a lot, but Thom has a soft spot and a caring voice. Especially for Jonny. Jonny looked up and stared at Thom, Embarrassed about everything. Embarrassed that he's crying in an empty bathtub, embarrassed that he thought Mary liked him. Thom started to get hot too, so he slipped his coat off and gently sat it on the floor, making his way over to Jonny to join him in the tub. he stepped in and slid down against the wall until he also had his knees to his chest. Thom looked over at Jonny, who stayed facing forward. he was a pretty crier, Thom thought. he didn't make any obnoxious noises or facial expressions. he just breathed shakily with the smallest frown while tears rolled down his rosy cheeks. his nose was red and his lips were plump. finally, Jonny spoke.

"It's fucking hot in here" he almost whispered.

"well, you have your coat on," Thom said. Jonny nodded. Thom didn't know what to say. He, once again, felt guilty. He felt guilty because he had finally gotten his best friend back for good. Mary was definitely out of the picture. The rest of the band isn't going to let Mary anywhere near their precious Jonny.

"Should I just pretend I didn't see it?" Jonny said. Thom looked at him. "what?" Jonny looked back at Thom, knowing Thom heard him correctly. "no Jonny. Absolutely not. I won't let you. That's too fucked up."

"Well don't you think that you would have been a little less miserable if you just pretended like you didn't catch Sarah?" The name, Sarah, stung. Thom hadn't heard that name in a few weeks. He thought about it. He would probably be even more miserable knowing that he was dating someone who he knew could never love him. But he also knew that he had contemplated doing it anyways at the moment that he caught her because when you're that hurt, it feels like it would fix all of your problems. ignoring it.

"Jonny, it seems like a good idea now, but it will hurt even worse in the long run." He looked over to Jonny. His face was absolutely flushed. he looked like he was burning alive, but he wouldn't take his stupid coat off. Thom decided to take it off for him. He knew Jonny wasn't going to take it off himself. "Jon Jon you're burning up. let's take that coat off." He said, leaning over Jonny to pull the sleeves off of him. Jonny wasn't going to budge so he let the coat fall behind Jonny's back. Jonny was grateful, he just didn't say it. Instead, he did something he never does. He leaned up against Thom's side and rested his head on his shoulder. He started to cry. like actually cry. Thom turned his body a little and grabbed the back of Jonny's head and neck, pulling Jonny's face into his chest and shoulder. He placed his hand on Jonny's back and felt it rise and fall as Jonny let out shaky sobs. Jonny's legs had found a way to wrap themselves around Thom. Jonny knew he was getting tears all over Thom's sweater. He tried to control his breathing a little bit and he let a muffled "sorry" before continuing to cry. What was hurting Jonny the most, was that he knew Thom went through this too, and there was nobody there to comfort him like this. Jonny had been too busy snogging a girl he had just met. Poor Thom, Jonny thought.

Poor Jonny, Thom thought. He was completely sober, sitting in a tub, basically holding his also completely sober, crying friend on his lap. Jonny's crying lasted for about five minutes before it started to die down. He kept his face buried in Thom's chest, not sure how to move from that position without feeling embarrassed. They sat like that for a little bit, the thumping of the bass downstairs made their stomachs sink along with the beat. They loved that feeling, especially Thom. He felt like he could sit like this forever. A knock at the door interrupted his thoughts. Jonny flinched a little, but didn't move from his position. "occupied" Thom yelled.

"Jesus christ you've been in there forever. You take a shit or something?" a girl yelled from behind the door.  Jonny knew that voice. it was Mary. Jonny's head shot up and looked at the door. Thom was quick to fire back with "maybe I am". Jonny smiled a little at Thoms smartass attitude until he heard "come on babe, let's find another" from behind the door.