So it's not forever?

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I lay on the floor of my bedroom feeling empty, it felt like i was the only person on earth. I don't think i've never felt so lonely in my life, this is the part i wasn't looking forward to.

He said everything so easily, like it was nothing to him. I doubt he even shed a tear, i doubt he even cared. I put my all into him and he left like it was nothing at all, like all of our memories and conversations meant nothing to him. We were soulmates i swear, i just guess it wasn't the right time, like come on now i'm thirteen as if i've found the love of my life at such a young age. I tried to make myself think i didn't love him but i feel sort of.. attached? i feel like i have a connection with him and it's pulling on my heart each time he hurts my feelings, soon enough it will pull hard enough that i lose feelings. But i guess my heart is strong and will hold on for a while because i know for sure that i'm not leaving anytime soon.

This may make me sound crazy, but i honestly feel like we are meant to be. All of his insecurities are perfections in my eyes, he doesn't realise how much i adore him. I wish he could just notice that i would do anything for him and i'd care for him, i'd never leave.

But what can i say, if we are meant to be we will find eachother again, no matter the situation. I guess i love you was a lie.