Dis-4-rhea

Her story

The alarm blared and my arm moved on its own. A few clicks and a grunt later somehow I reached the bathroom with a toothpaste on my brush. Brushing my grogginess away with the new mint and clove flavoured paste, I washed away the foam and did the rest of my cleaning.

I put on a floral dress that fits me perfectly. Maybe that's cause I made it myself. It's still looks pretty. I've really improved ! Putting on some basic makeup and drawing on my eyebrows, and a quick checkup on myself and my room that was cleaned yesterday, I was camera ready.

"Okay ! Let's do tthis! "

A long inhale and an exhale, and a brief look back to see everything is right, I looked once more to see if my teeth is clean and my room which I cleaned yesterday, I clicked on the livestream.

"Hello everyone. Welcome to today's video. I'm Dis-4-rhea ! "

The comments started pouring in with the hey's and the occassional hugs and kisses.

"I'm so lucky to have wonderful followers."

"So what can we talk today ?
Really @gonnabegurl ? Thank you for the compliment. It's still pretty early out here, so the lighting's a bit dim. I hope y'all understand."

"Last time I got a lot of PM's asking for where I got my dress from. I didn't know it would garner much attention. Actually...I made it. "

There were a lot of comments of whaa's and wow's in the side.and it made me so happy.

"Thank you so much @garny , @giselle and....wow thank for the suggestion @rhonda that's one of my goals - I really love designing clothes, so that's what I intend to do."

There was a comment from @laura saying "omfg you are so inspiring, I've been watching your vids over a year. And I love everything you do. My family's not that supportive of  me, so you're like my ray of light that makes me keep going. "

I almost teared up reading that. Being in that situation...I know it so much. It makes me feel so glad and so happy to do this.

"@laura, I'm so...

Suddenly she commented again. I looked down and they wrote, " Btw, can you please tell me about what it was like in your childhood ? Please, please pretty please ?

Suddenly there were a stream of comments asking for my backstory

"Y'all really wanna know, huh ? I guess my makeup and craft vids got you bored ?", I asked chuckling

A lithe of apologies came on the stream. I smiled for a bit and thought,

"Maybe it's time. How long am I keeping it a secret ? I think...I'm ready"

I looked at the camera thoughtfully and said,

"Okay then. "

I glanced over and saw emojis of disbelief sent there.

"Well it's been long over due, so I guess I'll share my story, " I said slowly.

"Well p.s, it wasnt all rainbows and roses for me, when I look back now. "

The comment section lay silent, waiting patiently.

"Where should I start ? The very beginning ? Tho I don't know when it began. Haah....this is going to be a long video..."

There some comments of encouragements and love and I never felt more ready than ever. Many of them have been with me for more than 2 years. A lot of them with problems like of my past. They deserve this. To know. That they're not alone. And that they'll get there, one day, like I have. I exhaled and I continued :